/ 5:38 PM

Discoveries of The Day
1. Sausages are better baked than fried.
(My attempt to fry them only made them too oily -eek-, and they were not juicy the way they should be, instead they were more like oozing oil)
2. I know how to make scrambled eggs.
(The surprise is, I thought I would know how to make an omelette and would be quite clueless as to how to make scrambled eggs. But I ended up making the latter instead!)
3. I've forgotten the third one. Sheesh.

It feels like learning to cook has been about using some common sense for me. Haha. Isn't it... All kinds of cooking oil, seasoning, sauces can just bought from the supermarket. And all of them can be consumed. So I just throw anything together as I please. Lol! That was how I made vegetable soup for myself just recently too. I was eating lettuce for ages, then decided to switch to eating some chinese leafy veg. And I realized that even though lettuce is kind of my fav veg (or the only veg I'm not so against eating XP), I still didn't like to eat it on its own! It'll be tasteless... I don't take salad dressing either! So how? Make soup lor... Yah, soup is a good idea. It's nice to have a soup along with my other relatively dry dish. Lolx. That makes it sound awful, I bet. I mean by the term of 'dry dish', e.g. rice with some kind of fillet I have baked etc etc. I've found like, squid fillets in the supermarket here! I like to eat breaded fillets. ^-^ I found on coming here that I like to eat seafood! And hard to believe, fish! Don't like chicken as much. Don't like tough meats. I didn't like fish before! The kinds of fish I ate in singapore weren't nice lei?? The fish I ate during mealtimes at home are like 'chee-na' kind one... Got a lot of bones, and the fish meat not much and not that nice... The fishy taste kinda too strong lei... Don't like chinese style fish! Gimme fish and chips style fish! Hahah~
Oh and, back to what I was saying, I thought how difficult it was to make veggie soup sia... But when I made it myself, I was thinking 'Chey...So easy'. Haha. I was younger back then! More naive... I thought that veggie soup seemed difficult to make because they had a particular colour, were seasoned to have a particular saltiness or whatever... Basically, my veggie soup was made in this way. Throw the veggies in the pot. Add water. Add less than 1 spoonful of seasoning. Splash some sesame oil. (Love the smell of sesame oil!) Splash some soy sauce. (Don't even like soy sauce much. I'm gonna go buy some marinade) Stir the thing, and the water becomes soup. =.= As I said, it's nice to have soup to go with the rice or whatever. Makes it easier for the rice to go down. Makes quite a complete meal in this case. Ahaha~
Right. Gonna go already. Going to go make some coffee. Then have to get in touch with some people online, and try to find things to do to fill my next semester (Just had a thought! There is Borders bookstore near my school too! Should I find time to work there? Hmm. I realize I like working in Borders coz they have info corner~ Info corner is cool, get to chat with ppl. I realize I like to chat and connect with ppl, but more often than not these days, I have to find crap to talk about. Major headache >.< Working at info corner gives me confidence, I get to help ppl find whatever books they want lar, yada yada. Maybe thats why that beats the experience of working at a cinema! So I haven't tried to apply for work at a cinema yet. But its just I have romanticized thoughts of getting to see the bewildered expressions on the faces of the ppl watching the movies, and I can think 'Oh yeah, I'm gonna work that magic in the near future too!' Haha sure yeah yeah.)
Okay, quite able to work something out of nothing here! Haha. This post is about almost nothing at all. Lolz~ Seems like I could learn to work something out of nothing! Haha. Life is as such. Should try to get myself to fill my time, tell miself that I have other better things to be thinking about when unnecessary and sometimes inexplainable angsty emotions of a young adult set in. Muahaha X)
I want to fit more reading activity into my time. Write some (hopefully creative) nonsense too. Learn movies. Learn guitar. Join the mailing lists of some clubs I've found so I can go to maybe screenings and directors' Q&As. Start to teach tuition (teaching chinese to caucasians. Haha isn't that cute). Learn how to make conversation without driving myself crazy. There is conversation which I don't even have to plan about in my head, and that to me is good conversation? That's how a flow of conversation comes about. That IS nice conversation. But there are times when conversation is not exactly conversation. It's talk. It's forced or worse, pretentious. Oh wait, not really pretentious either. The other party doesn't look like he/she is even 'there'. Not on Earth. Gone. Not in front of you anyway, not concentrating on you, no real concern about what is going on with you or whatsoever. One look at the person, and it looks that way. Don't know lar. *shrugs* Hey, I got songs that back what I'm blogging about again. Hee. Fight Club's theme song (or so I believe) is called 'Where Is My Mind'. Do you observe that modern phenomena consists of a losing of oneself. Eminem's song. Shawn Colvin's 'Sunny Came Home'. 'Days go by / I don't know why / I'm walking on a wire'. Hah! There, I told you. I'm not wrong. Ah but scratch that. I can't believe anything can be perfect anymore. It's making the best out of things. It's making something out of nothing. But I'm not always strong. That's the only thing. I've got so far to go! That's another thing. It's easy to be uneasy. There's always a first time to be learning. But we all hope for some kind of point where we can settle and belong and grow to become the best we can be. Doesn't come easy.
MY GAWD! What kind of turn has my blog post taken again? Lol. Also need to go plan for my holiday with Justina, and just surf the net now!
I can't believe how it happens that I seem to have lotsa stuff to talk about here, but it becomes almost nothing when I go off the net and go about my daily activities. I don't know man. The 'me' that's here and the 'me' who goes about daily activities outside. It's quite natural that they are a little different. It's not exceptional. I'm just gonna trust myself more that I'm taking it all in the right direction. And work at not letting any other unimportant thing bear down on me. Can this be reconciled? Hmms. Story idea. Lolx. Different identities! Can they be reconciled? Aiyah! But lots of things have been done before! Do you know my lecturer even said that soOh mme people believe that 'everything has been done' because we've come this far? Everything has been thought of, and even reproduced e.g. adaptations and so on. But aw, not possible. Still, what I've been thinking is, my ideas now aren't even as good as they could be. Sometimes, I can't even count on my brain and imagination alone. Takes courage out there too. I'll just be getting on! See what gives in semester 2 and so on. Pray I won't be so emo and stressed again. But I will be, I know. Lol. Well, just know that there is a point to stop and give oneself time for a deep breath and go on, that's all lor.
Oh my gawd, I've gone on for about an hour. But that's a pretty okay time. Signing off for real now! Be back soon. It would seem that if I don't blog for too long, I tend to get quite crazy. Would feel too out of touch with myself mah. Could be the case. Haha bye.

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 5:38 PM

Discoveries of The Day
1. Sausages are better baked than fried.
(My attempt to fry them only made them too oily -eek-, and they were not juicy the way they should be, instead they were more like oozing oil)
2. I know how to make scrambled eggs.
(The surprise is, I thought I would know how to make an omelette and would be quite clueless as to how to make scrambled eggs. But I ended up making the latter instead!)
3. I've forgotten the third one. Sheesh.

It feels like learning to cook has been about using some common sense for me. Haha. Isn't it... All kinds of cooking oil, seasoning, sauces can just bought from the supermarket. And all of them can be consumed. So I just throw anything together as I please. Lol! That was how I made vegetable soup for myself just recently too. I was eating lettuce for ages, then decided to switch to eating some chinese leafy veg. And I realized that even though lettuce is kind of my fav veg (or the only veg I'm not so against eating XP), I still didn't like to eat it on its own! It'll be tasteless... I don't take salad dressing either! So how? Make soup lor... Yah, soup is a good idea. It's nice to have a soup along with my other relatively dry dish. Lolx. That makes it sound awful, I bet. I mean by the term of 'dry dish', e.g. rice with some kind of fillet I have baked etc etc. I've found like, squid fillets in the supermarket here! I like to eat breaded fillets. ^-^ I found on coming here that I like to eat seafood! And hard to believe, fish! Don't like chicken as much. Don't like tough meats. I didn't like fish before! The kinds of fish I ate in singapore weren't nice lei?? The fish I ate during mealtimes at home are like 'chee-na' kind one... Got a lot of bones, and the fish meat not much and not that nice... The fishy taste kinda too strong lei... Don't like chinese style fish! Gimme fish and chips style fish! Hahah~
Oh and, back to what I was saying, I thought how difficult it was to make veggie soup sia... But when I made it myself, I was thinking 'Chey...So easy'. Haha. I was younger back then! More naive... I thought that veggie soup seemed difficult to make because they had a particular colour, were seasoned to have a particular saltiness or whatever... Basically, my veggie soup was made in this way. Throw the veggies in the pot. Add water. Add less than 1 spoonful of seasoning. Splash some sesame oil. (Love the smell of sesame oil!) Splash some soy sauce. (Don't even like soy sauce much. I'm gonna go buy some marinade) Stir the thing, and the water becomes soup. =.= As I said, it's nice to have soup to go with the rice or whatever. Makes it easier for the rice to go down. Makes quite a complete meal in this case. Ahaha~
Right. Gonna go already. Going to go make some coffee. Then have to get in touch with some people online, and try to find things to do to fill my next semester (Just had a thought! There is Borders bookstore near my school too! Should I find time to work there? Hmm. I realize I like working in Borders coz they have info corner~ Info corner is cool, get to chat with ppl. I realize I like to chat and connect with ppl, but more often than not these days, I have to find crap to talk about. Major headache >.< Working at info corner gives me confidence, I get to help ppl find whatever books they want lar, yada yada. Maybe thats why that beats the experience of working at a cinema! So I haven't tried to apply for work at a cinema yet. But its just I have romanticized thoughts of getting to see the bewildered expressions on the faces of the ppl watching the movies, and I can think 'Oh yeah, I'm gonna work that magic in the near future too!' Haha sure yeah yeah.)
Okay, quite able to work something out of nothing here! Haha. This post is about almost nothing at all. Lolz~ Seems like I could learn to work something out of nothing! Haha. Life is as such. Should try to get myself to fill my time, tell miself that I have other better things to be thinking about when unnecessary and sometimes inexplainable angsty emotions of a young adult set in. Muahaha X)
I want to fit more reading activity into my time. Write some (hopefully creative) nonsense too. Learn movies. Learn guitar. Join the mailing lists of some clubs I've found so I can go to maybe screenings and directors' Q&As. Start to teach tuition (teaching chinese to caucasians. Haha isn't that cute). Learn how to make conversation without driving myself crazy. There is conversation which I don't even have to plan about in my head, and that to me is good conversation? That's how a flow of conversation comes about. That IS nice conversation. But there are times when conversation is not exactly conversation. It's talk. It's forced or worse, pretentious. Oh wait, not really pretentious either. The other party doesn't look like he/she is even 'there'. Not on Earth. Gone. Not in front of you anyway, not concentrating on you, no real concern about what is going on with you or whatsoever. One look at the person, and it looks that way. Don't know lar. *shrugs* Hey, I got songs that back what I'm blogging about again. Hee. Fight Club's theme song (or so I believe) is called 'Where Is My Mind'. Do you observe that modern phenomena consists of a losing of oneself. Eminem's song. Shawn Colvin's 'Sunny Came Home'. 'Days go by / I don't know why / I'm walking on a wire'. Hah! There, I told you. I'm not wrong. Ah but scratch that. I can't believe anything can be perfect anymore. It's making the best out of things. It's making something out of nothing. But I'm not always strong. That's the only thing. I've got so far to go! That's another thing. It's easy to be uneasy. There's always a first time to be learning. But we all hope for some kind of point where we can settle and belong and grow to become the best we can be. Doesn't come easy.
MY GAWD! What kind of turn has my blog post taken again? Lol. Also need to go plan for my holiday with Justina, and just surf the net now!
I can't believe how it happens that I seem to have lotsa stuff to talk about here, but it becomes almost nothing when I go off the net and go about my daily activities. I don't know man. The 'me' that's here and the 'me' who goes about daily activities outside. It's quite natural that they are a little different. It's not exceptional. I'm just gonna trust myself more that I'm taking it all in the right direction. And work at not letting any other unimportant thing bear down on me. Can this be reconciled? Hmms. Story idea. Lolx. Different identities! Can they be reconciled? Aiyah! But lots of things have been done before! Do you know my lecturer even said that soOh mme people believe that 'everything has been done' because we've come this far? Everything has been thought of, and even reproduced e.g. adaptations and so on. But aw, not possible. Still, what I've been thinking is, my ideas now aren't even as good as they could be. Sometimes, I can't even count on my brain and imagination alone. Takes courage out there too. I'll just be getting on! See what gives in semester 2 and so on. Pray I won't be so emo and stressed again. But I will be, I know. Lol. Well, just know that there is a point to stop and give oneself time for a deep breath and go on, that's all lor.
Oh my gawd, I've gone on for about an hour. But that's a pretty okay time. Signing off for real now! Be back soon. It would seem that if I don't blog for too long, I tend to get quite crazy. Would feel too out of touch with myself mah. Could be the case. Haha bye.