/ 1:34 PM

This is so cool! I got a comment on my previous blogpost! Woooooooo~ Hahaha. Why are you anonymous though? Its kinda exciting...=P I probably should stop being so freaking thrilled over the one comment. Nice to receive it when I didn't expect it though. Heheh.

Alrighty. I have a journal to hand in this friday. Will have to do it in a while. Hmm, what had I intended to write about now? This may not be about anything substantial? I've been unsure of myself these days, yet I should just train myself to get my thoughts down no matter how superfluous they may seem, and then make more sense out of it all later. :P

I take back what I said about not being a daytime/morning person. Because I really am! I am most active past midnight all the way until 6am in the morning sometimes. During this time, another day has started, isn't it? So yes, I work extremely well in the wee hours of the day. (-.-")

This is going to sound stew-pid, but I dislike having to shop for groceries, and I feel kinda blur and lost even whenever I go for grocery shopping. Yes, it's lame. But it's like a chore, and I have to do it repetitively, which is annoying. Okay, forget about reading the rest of this post! Really. It's almost embarrassing to have anyone else read the rest of this. I'll just continue with this word vomit, and anyone who's reading this can stop right here, much obliged.

The little things that are bugging me.
I shouldn't be wasting time wondering why I feel so unwilling to go for grocery shopping.
It's required for an international student, so how can I even be lazy about it.
It's for my survival. And maybe that is the issue. I am eating just for survival?
What a kill joy. XD
Yeah, I've had occasions when I hurriedly ate just to fill my stomach.
Then I have had to rush to school or quickly get back to finishing my work.
Oooh, I shouldn't whine on and on about this.
Let me just get it over and done with.
Let me just say outright that this is not such a nice change, meals are less of a joy.
I don't care much for the huge variety in the supermarkets.
I'm not much into cooking, and haven't been aiming to whip up fabulous meals for myself.
Wanna keep it quick, cheap and hence meals remain pretty much simple.
I miss having my dad cook a meal for me.
Haha you're gonna say that I am a spoilt brat.
I am, indeed.
But it just is nice to have a meal which someone else has made for me.
Father's Day is coming, and my dad will be here in Melb!
Fantastic yeah... I think I'll make a meal for him! Yeshhh
So yeah man, let's face it! My meals currently suck!
Mealtimes are just something I squeeze in between the time I have to get to school or get my work done!
I miss having meals cooked by my dad, and I miss the foodcourts in SG beri beri much too.
Eating out in Singapore is a lot more pleasurable. Hehe.
I never cared about going to particular restaurants each weekend to have the best lobster or anything, but I liked being able to eat good food at every mealtime.
I just had to walk into a foodcourt, pay a couple of dollars, and I'd have a nice meal to gobble down and be done with. Ahaha.
And now?? Don't exactly have like one plate of delicious hokkien mee, or a bowl of yummy yet healthy yong tau hu noodles...
Haha yeah, that reminds me.
On going back home, I'll be picking my own yong tau hu with those pincers again! Hahaha
Now if I want to save money, I'll go for rice/noodles and side dishes... Like what we call 'chai fan' in SG... But now I realize it ain't even the same! The food here don't give the feeling of being home cooked... Heheheh. Then it's just packed into this compact plastic container, and it costs about AU$6 or $7... Yeah, same as in it's 'ta bao' to be taken home. But I really mean it when I say that the food doesn't give the feeling of being home cooked. Well duh. It's not Singaporean style food! The choice is just between fried rice or fried noodles. The dishes are just staples. Whereas in Singapore, there's like kang kong or whatever. Lol.
I can't believe it. How Singaporean I have all been all this while. I am Singaporean at heart. I'm going to burst into tears and sorrowfully sing our national anthem now. Hahaha what the??? I cannot believe it.
Am I realizing now that Singapore has an identity?? What with our MRT and whatsoever... It amazes me! I'm realizing now, on coming away from my country that there are things to be found in S'pore which cannot be found anywhere else!
It's entirely amazing I can start noticing these things which I have taken for granted before. Is there any use to this?? Am I going to set out to capture these things which are unique to us? I'm acting noble and all that again. xP
I have felt so tired of being in Singapore, with reasons.
All these feelings of push and pull. They'll always remain!
It's hard to want more, and then also want less.
Haha.
As I set out to lead a more 'exciting' life, I see that the basic things need to be there too.
Basic needs and all... Not making any reference to groceries. Bleahx.
This post didn't turn out to be so useless after all.
I recognize some of the things I've been missing.
It's astounding.
You have the right to ask me, "Then what the hell do you want??"
"You have chosen to be in Melbourne right here, right now. "
And I have.
All that I've known in Singapore, is only relevant in Singapore.
In fact, I ain't even so much a part of Singapore.
I absorb what seems to be the norm, but it's hard to know what to put out to define myself.
I have to know!
If all that I've known in Singapore is only relevant in Singapore, what constitutes me now??
I thought that there would be a sharing of cultures and all over here, but it now seems that it's necessary to just appear like a hip, chill out person who knows how to handle life and enjoy it. But of course. Who doesn't find such a person agreeable?
Culture here is different? You bet. But I guess this could be really interesting.
Oh yeah, baby.
It is also my priority that I 'enjoy life'. I totally agree with that. But I shall have to put it a little differently however. It is my priority that I first acknowledge that life sucks, and then I try to undermine that knowledge and 'live it up' the way I want to. Ahaha~
Can anybody be happy all the time? I'm not trying to preach that a negative outlook is better. Nonono. But even at those points in time when I feel sian, I can try to tell myself that's the way it is, and then try to feel better about it. And I might honestly mean it more than someone else who always tries too hard to be happy all the time. As in, I really mean to make myself feel better.
I just bought myself a pair of headphones off eBay. I felt like I was entitled to it. Hahah!
First time I've done online shopping... I'm not a spendthrift! I got it for about 25 SG dollars. And I intend to use it alright. As long as they work well for me. That's what I hope. ^^ I never liked wearing earphones. They hurt my ears... User reviews say that the headphones I got makes the music sound better! Thus I bought them! And, headphones are simply... Cool. ;) I especially like the ones which have a band that goes not over the top of one's head, but across the back of one's head.
I'm not a girl-girl. I'm half girl and half guy (at heart). Ewwwww. Yesyes, all you men, just run as far away from me as you can. Lolx!
But hey, I have a good eye for pretty clothes. I'll need to fill my wardrobe for Uni too!!! Lets say for now, that I want it to be casual or more accurately, comfortable. Comfortable and somewhat interesting. I'll go for a style like that. Not going to be all pretty dresses. Maybe only occasionally in summer. If I can't look pretty in a different way, I don't even care to try! ;P Flat shoes for me. I love sneakers by the way. So happening! I seem to like the grittiness of cobbled streets. I like the street style of sneakers. Sneaker designs are an art, aren't they? =) I don't know... Will I be dressed in cardigans for winter? Can't say for now! Dun wanna feel all bundled up, that is!
Ok, this has been pretty entertaining. Writing this blogpost, that is. I have no more time left. Screw it, I gotta get back to getting my journal done. And make myself yet another pretty sucky dinner. Today I got microwaveable lasagne and spring rolls that can be oven baked, these 2 choices. I do try to eat healthily! I buy unprocessed meat when I have more time to cook.
I have to force myself to take the time I have into consideration, if I want to do all the many things such as allowing myself the luxury of writing this blogpost.
Oh wait, 'screw it' means 'to hell with it'? I seem to not mind using this phrase. But it is used in what context? Hmmmz
Goodbye now! Lolz
I will change the look of my blog soon as I got the time.

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 1:34 PM

This is so cool! I got a comment on my previous blogpost! Woooooooo~ Hahaha. Why are you anonymous though? Its kinda exciting...=P I probably should stop being so freaking thrilled over the one comment. Nice to receive it when I didn't expect it though. Heheh.

Alrighty. I have a journal to hand in this friday. Will have to do it in a while. Hmm, what had I intended to write about now? This may not be about anything substantial? I've been unsure of myself these days, yet I should just train myself to get my thoughts down no matter how superfluous they may seem, and then make more sense out of it all later. :P

I take back what I said about not being a daytime/morning person. Because I really am! I am most active past midnight all the way until 6am in the morning sometimes. During this time, another day has started, isn't it? So yes, I work extremely well in the wee hours of the day. (-.-")

This is going to sound stew-pid, but I dislike having to shop for groceries, and I feel kinda blur and lost even whenever I go for grocery shopping. Yes, it's lame. But it's like a chore, and I have to do it repetitively, which is annoying. Okay, forget about reading the rest of this post! Really. It's almost embarrassing to have anyone else read the rest of this. I'll just continue with this word vomit, and anyone who's reading this can stop right here, much obliged.

The little things that are bugging me.
I shouldn't be wasting time wondering why I feel so unwilling to go for grocery shopping.
It's required for an international student, so how can I even be lazy about it.
It's for my survival. And maybe that is the issue. I am eating just for survival?
What a kill joy. XD
Yeah, I've had occasions when I hurriedly ate just to fill my stomach.
Then I have had to rush to school or quickly get back to finishing my work.
Oooh, I shouldn't whine on and on about this.
Let me just get it over and done with.
Let me just say outright that this is not such a nice change, meals are less of a joy.
I don't care much for the huge variety in the supermarkets.
I'm not much into cooking, and haven't been aiming to whip up fabulous meals for myself.
Wanna keep it quick, cheap and hence meals remain pretty much simple.
I miss having my dad cook a meal for me.
Haha you're gonna say that I am a spoilt brat.
I am, indeed.
But it just is nice to have a meal which someone else has made for me.
Father's Day is coming, and my dad will be here in Melb!
Fantastic yeah... I think I'll make a meal for him! Yeshhh
So yeah man, let's face it! My meals currently suck!
Mealtimes are just something I squeeze in between the time I have to get to school or get my work done!
I miss having meals cooked by my dad, and I miss the foodcourts in SG beri beri much too.
Eating out in Singapore is a lot more pleasurable. Hehe.
I never cared about going to particular restaurants each weekend to have the best lobster or anything, but I liked being able to eat good food at every mealtime.
I just had to walk into a foodcourt, pay a couple of dollars, and I'd have a nice meal to gobble down and be done with. Ahaha.
And now?? Don't exactly have like one plate of delicious hokkien mee, or a bowl of yummy yet healthy yong tau hu noodles...
Haha yeah, that reminds me.
On going back home, I'll be picking my own yong tau hu with those pincers again! Hahaha
Now if I want to save money, I'll go for rice/noodles and side dishes... Like what we call 'chai fan' in SG... But now I realize it ain't even the same! The food here don't give the feeling of being home cooked... Heheheh. Then it's just packed into this compact plastic container, and it costs about AU$6 or $7... Yeah, same as in it's 'ta bao' to be taken home. But I really mean it when I say that the food doesn't give the feeling of being home cooked. Well duh. It's not Singaporean style food! The choice is just between fried rice or fried noodles. The dishes are just staples. Whereas in Singapore, there's like kang kong or whatever. Lol.
I can't believe it. How Singaporean I have all been all this while. I am Singaporean at heart. I'm going to burst into tears and sorrowfully sing our national anthem now. Hahaha what the??? I cannot believe it.
Am I realizing now that Singapore has an identity?? What with our MRT and whatsoever... It amazes me! I'm realizing now, on coming away from my country that there are things to be found in S'pore which cannot be found anywhere else!
It's entirely amazing I can start noticing these things which I have taken for granted before. Is there any use to this?? Am I going to set out to capture these things which are unique to us? I'm acting noble and all that again. xP
I have felt so tired of being in Singapore, with reasons.
All these feelings of push and pull. They'll always remain!
It's hard to want more, and then also want less.
Haha.
As I set out to lead a more 'exciting' life, I see that the basic things need to be there too.
Basic needs and all... Not making any reference to groceries. Bleahx.
This post didn't turn out to be so useless after all.
I recognize some of the things I've been missing.
It's astounding.
You have the right to ask me, "Then what the hell do you want??"
"You have chosen to be in Melbourne right here, right now. "
And I have.
All that I've known in Singapore, is only relevant in Singapore.
In fact, I ain't even so much a part of Singapore.
I absorb what seems to be the norm, but it's hard to know what to put out to define myself.
I have to know!
If all that I've known in Singapore is only relevant in Singapore, what constitutes me now??
I thought that there would be a sharing of cultures and all over here, but it now seems that it's necessary to just appear like a hip, chill out person who knows how to handle life and enjoy it. But of course. Who doesn't find such a person agreeable?
Culture here is different? You bet. But I guess this could be really interesting.
Oh yeah, baby.
It is also my priority that I 'enjoy life'. I totally agree with that. But I shall have to put it a little differently however. It is my priority that I first acknowledge that life sucks, and then I try to undermine that knowledge and 'live it up' the way I want to. Ahaha~
Can anybody be happy all the time? I'm not trying to preach that a negative outlook is better. Nonono. But even at those points in time when I feel sian, I can try to tell myself that's the way it is, and then try to feel better about it. And I might honestly mean it more than someone else who always tries too hard to be happy all the time. As in, I really mean to make myself feel better.
I just bought myself a pair of headphones off eBay. I felt like I was entitled to it. Hahah!
First time I've done online shopping... I'm not a spendthrift! I got it for about 25 SG dollars. And I intend to use it alright. As long as they work well for me. That's what I hope. ^^ I never liked wearing earphones. They hurt my ears... User reviews say that the headphones I got makes the music sound better! Thus I bought them! And, headphones are simply... Cool. ;) I especially like the ones which have a band that goes not over the top of one's head, but across the back of one's head.
I'm not a girl-girl. I'm half girl and half guy (at heart). Ewwwww. Yesyes, all you men, just run as far away from me as you can. Lolx!
But hey, I have a good eye for pretty clothes. I'll need to fill my wardrobe for Uni too!!! Lets say for now, that I want it to be casual or more accurately, comfortable. Comfortable and somewhat interesting. I'll go for a style like that. Not going to be all pretty dresses. Maybe only occasionally in summer. If I can't look pretty in a different way, I don't even care to try! ;P Flat shoes for me. I love sneakers by the way. So happening! I seem to like the grittiness of cobbled streets. I like the street style of sneakers. Sneaker designs are an art, aren't they? =) I don't know... Will I be dressed in cardigans for winter? Can't say for now! Dun wanna feel all bundled up, that is!
Ok, this has been pretty entertaining. Writing this blogpost, that is. I have no more time left. Screw it, I gotta get back to getting my journal done. And make myself yet another pretty sucky dinner. Today I got microwaveable lasagne and spring rolls that can be oven baked, these 2 choices. I do try to eat healthily! I buy unprocessed meat when I have more time to cook.
I have to force myself to take the time I have into consideration, if I want to do all the many things such as allowing myself the luxury of writing this blogpost.
Oh wait, 'screw it' means 'to hell with it'? I seem to not mind using this phrase. But it is used in what context? Hmmmz
Goodbye now! Lolz
I will change the look of my blog soon as I got the time.