/ 10:49 AM

I nailed it! Haha I nailed my oral presentation today. I made some pretty good observations about the movie, and they were of my own imagination. ^-^ I was in a group for this, but we allocated the points among ourselves and thus I could think of the elaboration of my own points.. Of course I nailed it. Lol. Oral presentations and movies are my thing. Hah~

I -know- I can read movies. It feels like it comes naturally to me. It almost feels like it just takes simple common sense as long as you are interested enough to think or just look a little harder? The director may be out to fool his audience. I'm not letting anyone fool me. Ahaha.. And that's why I really love to dig for every trick a director may have planned for in his shots. Maybe not always. I know I want to just sit back and enjoy a movie too.

It's a big thing for me that I should feel naturally interested in movies, visuals. This kind of feeling you may have had to force yourself to develop many a time. Like when I was taking the 'A' levels lar.. Haha. It's forced to have to try to fill one's life with meaning, make it interesting or whatever, but when there's just an interesting visual before my eyes, it does the job. It just takes me with it, and I have to make no effort at all at those points in time. Does it not sound entirely magical if I tell you that when I watch a movie in a cinema, it feels like the world can consist of just the space of the cinema and nothing else? Is it only me who imagines this? Haha. Well, is it not great that for those few hours, you have no external distractions on your mind? As I love theme park rides so much as well, I think of the cinema space as one for a park ride as well, and the screen would start showing stuff in 3D and the seats would start moving and all that. :P One thing I'm quite sure is, I wanna work at universal studios if it opens at the SG Integrated Resort! Oh gawd.. I've been so out of touch with Singapore. Lolz. Anyway, I so love the idea of Universal Studios or Disneyland and etc having a world of its own created. That is so awesome.

Do I go for fantasy over reality too often? Well everybody needs to have a sweet escape once in a while. All I want is to prove (to myself?) I can make good of it man. I see the value of this. I mean, what have you done at the end of your time? XD You gotta try to do something. I wish to come up with cool ideas to let an audience escape to a world of thrills and spills better than any other they've come across before.

It's gonna be hard. It takes more than just talk. But actually, no. It also takes a lot of talking perhaps. >_< Gotta learn to work with people. I am not always good at that. Well, that's that. I am wherever I am. Welcome to wherever you are. Gotta be learning sometime. It's just utterly confusing what I should be learning. Argh, I came to post this, thinking I'll be able to get down everything I wanna say, but I'm feeling too sleepy now! Sleeping at 2am and sometimes later, over here these days. It would have been only 12 midnight if I were to be in SG! Haha.. That may be it.. I would rarely have been in bed before 12 midnight in SG. But then, now the school work I have to handle is quite different too! My time and effort goes into that now. ^^

I wanted to talk it out why it is so stressful to be thrown among a huge group of uni students just like this! Haha.. Can you imagine the difference? Between being among a huge group of uni students and being in good ol' Millennia which is so unpopulated? Hahah.. Looking on the bright side, I'll say that Millennia felt like a private school, and I should think of myself as a filthy rich student among the few privileged who have been able to afford to study on the quiet little hill on which good ol' Millennia was situated... Hahaha =p

I am too sleepy to continue this entry! I have a really cool music video to share too.. And as usual, songs and stuff. I don't know how I have stayed kinda depressed (due to wondering about outlook of full 3 to 4 years here in Melbourne. Btw I have not talked about Melbourne at all, have I. Lolz what's with me!), and repressed and whatsoever. Ahaha. But consider this. I am 21 years old. It IS a problematic time in life. XP People all around show me how they 'live it up'. But I don't care about 'living it up'. I am just living my life. That's all there is to it, hey??? You don't go pretending life is something it's not. In the time to come, I hope to hang on to whatever I tell myself, whatever I do know inside of me. It's never easy. But more and more now, I also want to say, "F*CK IT!!! Whatever doesn't help the situation, get out of my face" or something. Lolx. People here say 'fuck', A LOT.

I don't know man. I know I might not ever be the most bold in speaking out. Other people really push it to get themselves heard. Whether it's worthwhile to hear or not. I have my own defiance. I need to hold on and be steady. Lots of partying here, and throwing of oneself away. When I have to do that, I feel like I got nothing to hang on to. That is a ridiculous thing to be constantly chasing after. How long can one last? I only go after that kind of thrill in actual activities. Maybe I should pick up a sport. Gawd, I want more time!!! I can't just be struggling with my school work always! That sucks big time.

Give me something I'll like to do, give me the ability to forget about useless unhappy thoughts, give me the ability to give time to thinking about the things I myself want to get done instead of thinking about some other people and the talk they make which kills the engine in my brain. Am I to have two brains? Each for a completely different purpose? I can't go on just asking myself these random general questions, can I? I have to be somewhat absorbent and analytical. Ha. Let it in, let it out.

This will not solve things perhaps. There will come a time to progress beyond this and just move along. ?_? I don't know man, I know it'll bug me again. But the time will come when it comes.

What does it take to be 21?? I'm now thinking of the movie, "21"! Jim Sturgess is a hot favourite of mine right now. ^o^ Know what was the review I gave for the movie? 'Good way of gaining access to the high life, show me the ropes!' Haha. Winner, winner, chicken dinner? Liar, liar, pants on fire, I say. ;)

Movie was stylish. Theme song 'Time To Pretend' made me rock with it, and want to bawl my eyes out at the same time !

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 10:49 AM

I nailed it! Haha I nailed my oral presentation today. I made some pretty good observations about the movie, and they were of my own imagination. ^-^ I was in a group for this, but we allocated the points among ourselves and thus I could think of the elaboration of my own points.. Of course I nailed it. Lol. Oral presentations and movies are my thing. Hah~

I -know- I can read movies. It feels like it comes naturally to me. It almost feels like it just takes simple common sense as long as you are interested enough to think or just look a little harder? The director may be out to fool his audience. I'm not letting anyone fool me. Ahaha.. And that's why I really love to dig for every trick a director may have planned for in his shots. Maybe not always. I know I want to just sit back and enjoy a movie too.

It's a big thing for me that I should feel naturally interested in movies, visuals. This kind of feeling you may have had to force yourself to develop many a time. Like when I was taking the 'A' levels lar.. Haha. It's forced to have to try to fill one's life with meaning, make it interesting or whatever, but when there's just an interesting visual before my eyes, it does the job. It just takes me with it, and I have to make no effort at all at those points in time. Does it not sound entirely magical if I tell you that when I watch a movie in a cinema, it feels like the world can consist of just the space of the cinema and nothing else? Is it only me who imagines this? Haha. Well, is it not great that for those few hours, you have no external distractions on your mind? As I love theme park rides so much as well, I think of the cinema space as one for a park ride as well, and the screen would start showing stuff in 3D and the seats would start moving and all that. :P One thing I'm quite sure is, I wanna work at universal studios if it opens at the SG Integrated Resort! Oh gawd.. I've been so out of touch with Singapore. Lolz. Anyway, I so love the idea of Universal Studios or Disneyland and etc having a world of its own created. That is so awesome.

Do I go for fantasy over reality too often? Well everybody needs to have a sweet escape once in a while. All I want is to prove (to myself?) I can make good of it man. I see the value of this. I mean, what have you done at the end of your time? XD You gotta try to do something. I wish to come up with cool ideas to let an audience escape to a world of thrills and spills better than any other they've come across before.

It's gonna be hard. It takes more than just talk. But actually, no. It also takes a lot of talking perhaps. >_< Gotta learn to work with people. I am not always good at that. Well, that's that. I am wherever I am. Welcome to wherever you are. Gotta be learning sometime. It's just utterly confusing what I should be learning. Argh, I came to post this, thinking I'll be able to get down everything I wanna say, but I'm feeling too sleepy now! Sleeping at 2am and sometimes later, over here these days. It would have been only 12 midnight if I were to be in SG! Haha.. That may be it.. I would rarely have been in bed before 12 midnight in SG. But then, now the school work I have to handle is quite different too! My time and effort goes into that now. ^^

I wanted to talk it out why it is so stressful to be thrown among a huge group of uni students just like this! Haha.. Can you imagine the difference? Between being among a huge group of uni students and being in good ol' Millennia which is so unpopulated? Hahah.. Looking on the bright side, I'll say that Millennia felt like a private school, and I should think of myself as a filthy rich student among the few privileged who have been able to afford to study on the quiet little hill on which good ol' Millennia was situated... Hahaha =p

I am too sleepy to continue this entry! I have a really cool music video to share too.. And as usual, songs and stuff. I don't know how I have stayed kinda depressed (due to wondering about outlook of full 3 to 4 years here in Melbourne. Btw I have not talked about Melbourne at all, have I. Lolz what's with me!), and repressed and whatsoever. Ahaha. But consider this. I am 21 years old. It IS a problematic time in life. XP People all around show me how they 'live it up'. But I don't care about 'living it up'. I am just living my life. That's all there is to it, hey??? You don't go pretending life is something it's not. In the time to come, I hope to hang on to whatever I tell myself, whatever I do know inside of me. It's never easy. But more and more now, I also want to say, "F*CK IT!!! Whatever doesn't help the situation, get out of my face" or something. Lolx. People here say 'fuck', A LOT.

I don't know man. I know I might not ever be the most bold in speaking out. Other people really push it to get themselves heard. Whether it's worthwhile to hear or not. I have my own defiance. I need to hold on and be steady. Lots of partying here, and throwing of oneself away. When I have to do that, I feel like I got nothing to hang on to. That is a ridiculous thing to be constantly chasing after. How long can one last? I only go after that kind of thrill in actual activities. Maybe I should pick up a sport. Gawd, I want more time!!! I can't just be struggling with my school work always! That sucks big time.

Give me something I'll like to do, give me the ability to forget about useless unhappy thoughts, give me the ability to give time to thinking about the things I myself want to get done instead of thinking about some other people and the talk they make which kills the engine in my brain. Am I to have two brains? Each for a completely different purpose? I can't go on just asking myself these random general questions, can I? I have to be somewhat absorbent and analytical. Ha. Let it in, let it out.

This will not solve things perhaps. There will come a time to progress beyond this and just move along. ?_? I don't know man, I know it'll bug me again. But the time will come when it comes.

What does it take to be 21?? I'm now thinking of the movie, "21"! Jim Sturgess is a hot favourite of mine right now. ^o^ Know what was the review I gave for the movie? 'Good way of gaining access to the high life, show me the ropes!' Haha. Winner, winner, chicken dinner? Liar, liar, pants on fire, I say. ;)

Movie was stylish. Theme song 'Time To Pretend' made me rock with it, and want to bawl my eyes out at the same time !