/ 6:43 PM

Oh dear, I feel a bit sorry that I foresee that I have little or no time to blog for a while now. Blogging meant so much to me in Singapore! Was it because I lacked things to do in that tiny, tiny country? Haha. But who knows? Maybe I'll lack things to do in Melbourne too after I've gotten all around the city. But that does not seem that likely! Melbourne is a wonderful place. But you know what, I still get my share of ups and downs. But of course. I was going to say I had such a bad day yesterday, but I had a good day today. The education is pretty much turning me on. Hahah ;P I'm really getting into it... Some people have been intimidating, and I have been made to feel bad. And I got a tendency to really go overboard when I feel bad, like all the blame is on myself. I'll think 'Why am I like this, why am I like that' and blah blah. But that's definitely out of point. It isn't just about me. Not only should one not be thinking of oneself always, one shouldn't put be so critical of oneself when things go wrong (it may not even be wrong, it could be in our heads. well I've just learnt overtime, even before coming to melbourne, that it's better to move on~ if one needs to reflect, go ahead. and then, go and do what you need to do) and feel crappy all day long. Things are always bigger than just ourselves.

And today, I'm fine, you know. I went for a Unilodge (my accomodation. they have units all over melbourne) BBQ. They eat tons of hotdogs, sandwiches here. I didn't think of going at first, but I met a course mate who said she would be going, and so I went after class too. I didn't get to talk to her at the BBQ though, but we already talked in class.

Class was nice. I'll say a little something here. Well, the class was about writing media texts, and there were exercises such as one that required us to write a paragraph about fear. Just anything about fear! That was the coolest. I love it that I'm being asked to write the stuff, and not forced to read piles of information. Oh, but I do have many readings to do. But I am soaking them up alright! The cinema studies reading was about the form of movies, and hey, I wouldn't mind knowing all that! So I really soak it up. =) But at night, when it gets really quiet, I can either concentrate very well or either get distracted by the starking stillness of my surroundings. It can work either way. If I get distracted by the stark stillness of my surroundings, I may want to turn on my laptop and watch something fun. Hehe =P

The people who were beside me while we wrote about fear and all made a good difference too. We were asked to turn to the people beside us, and read out what we wrote, share ideas and all that. And I had nice people sitting beside me. It was nice to hear people talk about themselves wanting to make movies too, and also having made movies of their own with friends. I get glimpses of how there are talented, intelligent people around in RMIT or in melbourne, and that is really great.

Okay, I did not really mean it when I said that I didn't have time to blog, did I? Buahaha.

Well you know what. Last paragraph here. About the Unilodge BBQ. Luckily I asked this Malaysian guy who was sitting at the gathering place if I was there for the right event. Then we started talking. I thought he looked kinda cute. Hehehehe. Such a frivolous comment. And no, I don't go for the typical hunky, shiny kind of guy. This one was wearing specs, and he looked good enough to me. Well, he was just looking right at me all the time while we were talking, and that's the way it should be. I think this should be considered a lucky thing, because I don't know if I would be able to go and sit with just any group on getting there, and just talk. It's not so cool to join a group who has been talking some time. I'm less effective in getting to know people if they are already in cliques.

Well, but after that malaysian guy, I still got to join 2 other groups. Couldn't see where he went so with my hotdog, I just sat somewhere and there you go, I was part of a group. Talked mainly to 2 more girls then. Melbourne people can be friendly. Yet you could meet extra cold ones on other occasions. And finally, I found myself in another bigger group, and we talked a bit of crap here and there. Yet, though it was crap, I thought it was just good enough that some of the people looked at me and really talked to me, and with a bit of sincerity like that, I don't mind that kind of interation at all. =]

Yet, you can count on it that there'll be that kind of people here who look perfect to the extent that one wonders what is underneath that pretty porcelain shell. Yeah, some of their faces do look like that. The chinese pretty much like to remain a bit more fair, a number of the western girls have attained a very much perfect tan. Oh, I think I have said that the chinese looking people here have been westernized too? Well, that's faultless. But you can imagine how their accents sound like. *cold shivers* I stick to my own, with the singlish censored. I've said about a million 'yeahs' in the past 3 weeks. But I stick to my own style of humour. ^^ I think I can succeed in being funny pretty often... Good thing my english is of a higher standard. *phew* Though it can be insincere that people give value to things with a common 'cool', 'nice' and so on, the part I like is that at least the conversations go fast. Keeps the mind going. But it really should remain important that people slow down to get a bit more value out of things than that.

Well, the BBQ ended with something random. Like, because those ppl know I was doing cinema studies, they asked me as we were going to part when I was going to make a film. I said in a few years' time. And they said to keep them informed, because they would be excited to act in a film and all that. And I was like, yeah I'd advertize widely so you could come for auditions, and all that. And then we parted. With 'see ya's and smiles.

You know, I never had that kind of experience whereby one may or may never see the other party again, yet people could all come together for that night. I guess that's part of the appeal of parties. There are many parties in Melbourne. And even if I said it would be years before my making a film, I think that in my course I'd be getting to do that in the period of my studies itself! So yeah, maybe it will really happen that I can bump into those people at some other Unilodge BBQ again, and ask them to form part of the cast? Those people were from all over the world as well. Another thing that's really different about tonight's experience. Melbourne really does have people from all over the world.

But I still do think, that I need more than just BBQs or parties. I need to find some friends while studying. While sharing our ideas and work. That would be really, really nice. And then the partying can come after. ;) After I get some good friends. Well, moving along... We'll see.

Bye for now!

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 6:43 PM

Oh dear, I feel a bit sorry that I foresee that I have little or no time to blog for a while now. Blogging meant so much to me in Singapore! Was it because I lacked things to do in that tiny, tiny country? Haha. But who knows? Maybe I'll lack things to do in Melbourne too after I've gotten all around the city. But that does not seem that likely! Melbourne is a wonderful place. But you know what, I still get my share of ups and downs. But of course. I was going to say I had such a bad day yesterday, but I had a good day today. The education is pretty much turning me on. Hahah ;P I'm really getting into it... Some people have been intimidating, and I have been made to feel bad. And I got a tendency to really go overboard when I feel bad, like all the blame is on myself. I'll think 'Why am I like this, why am I like that' and blah blah. But that's definitely out of point. It isn't just about me. Not only should one not be thinking of oneself always, one shouldn't put be so critical of oneself when things go wrong (it may not even be wrong, it could be in our heads. well I've just learnt overtime, even before coming to melbourne, that it's better to move on~ if one needs to reflect, go ahead. and then, go and do what you need to do) and feel crappy all day long. Things are always bigger than just ourselves.

And today, I'm fine, you know. I went for a Unilodge (my accomodation. they have units all over melbourne) BBQ. They eat tons of hotdogs, sandwiches here. I didn't think of going at first, but I met a course mate who said she would be going, and so I went after class too. I didn't get to talk to her at the BBQ though, but we already talked in class.

Class was nice. I'll say a little something here. Well, the class was about writing media texts, and there were exercises such as one that required us to write a paragraph about fear. Just anything about fear! That was the coolest. I love it that I'm being asked to write the stuff, and not forced to read piles of information. Oh, but I do have many readings to do. But I am soaking them up alright! The cinema studies reading was about the form of movies, and hey, I wouldn't mind knowing all that! So I really soak it up. =) But at night, when it gets really quiet, I can either concentrate very well or either get distracted by the starking stillness of my surroundings. It can work either way. If I get distracted by the stark stillness of my surroundings, I may want to turn on my laptop and watch something fun. Hehe =P

The people who were beside me while we wrote about fear and all made a good difference too. We were asked to turn to the people beside us, and read out what we wrote, share ideas and all that. And I had nice people sitting beside me. It was nice to hear people talk about themselves wanting to make movies too, and also having made movies of their own with friends. I get glimpses of how there are talented, intelligent people around in RMIT or in melbourne, and that is really great.

Okay, I did not really mean it when I said that I didn't have time to blog, did I? Buahaha.

Well you know what. Last paragraph here. About the Unilodge BBQ. Luckily I asked this Malaysian guy who was sitting at the gathering place if I was there for the right event. Then we started talking. I thought he looked kinda cute. Hehehehe. Such a frivolous comment. And no, I don't go for the typical hunky, shiny kind of guy. This one was wearing specs, and he looked good enough to me. Well, he was just looking right at me all the time while we were talking, and that's the way it should be. I think this should be considered a lucky thing, because I don't know if I would be able to go and sit with just any group on getting there, and just talk. It's not so cool to join a group who has been talking some time. I'm less effective in getting to know people if they are already in cliques.

Well, but after that malaysian guy, I still got to join 2 other groups. Couldn't see where he went so with my hotdog, I just sat somewhere and there you go, I was part of a group. Talked mainly to 2 more girls then. Melbourne people can be friendly. Yet you could meet extra cold ones on other occasions. And finally, I found myself in another bigger group, and we talked a bit of crap here and there. Yet, though it was crap, I thought it was just good enough that some of the people looked at me and really talked to me, and with a bit of sincerity like that, I don't mind that kind of interation at all. =]

Yet, you can count on it that there'll be that kind of people here who look perfect to the extent that one wonders what is underneath that pretty porcelain shell. Yeah, some of their faces do look like that. The chinese pretty much like to remain a bit more fair, a number of the western girls have attained a very much perfect tan. Oh, I think I have said that the chinese looking people here have been westernized too? Well, that's faultless. But you can imagine how their accents sound like. *cold shivers* I stick to my own, with the singlish censored. I've said about a million 'yeahs' in the past 3 weeks. But I stick to my own style of humour. ^^ I think I can succeed in being funny pretty often... Good thing my english is of a higher standard. *phew* Though it can be insincere that people give value to things with a common 'cool', 'nice' and so on, the part I like is that at least the conversations go fast. Keeps the mind going. But it really should remain important that people slow down to get a bit more value out of things than that.

Well, the BBQ ended with something random. Like, because those ppl know I was doing cinema studies, they asked me as we were going to part when I was going to make a film. I said in a few years' time. And they said to keep them informed, because they would be excited to act in a film and all that. And I was like, yeah I'd advertize widely so you could come for auditions, and all that. And then we parted. With 'see ya's and smiles.

You know, I never had that kind of experience whereby one may or may never see the other party again, yet people could all come together for that night. I guess that's part of the appeal of parties. There are many parties in Melbourne. And even if I said it would be years before my making a film, I think that in my course I'd be getting to do that in the period of my studies itself! So yeah, maybe it will really happen that I can bump into those people at some other Unilodge BBQ again, and ask them to form part of the cast? Those people were from all over the world as well. Another thing that's really different about tonight's experience. Melbourne really does have people from all over the world.

But I still do think, that I need more than just BBQs or parties. I need to find some friends while studying. While sharing our ideas and work. That would be really, really nice. And then the partying can come after. ;) After I get some good friends. Well, moving along... We'll see.

Bye for now!