/ 8:27 PM

Dear all,

I have finally gotten my internet connection over here in Melbourne!!!!! That also means I have gotten part of my LIFE back too!!! Lol~ I never realized it was this important to me. It just gets me up and kicking. :P The things I do on the net really mean something to me okay.. I need my movies, drama and music so bad sia.. The net provides me with those, as well as lots of laughs and inspiring moments and everything! I have felt kinda dead to the world w/o the internet also, feel like I have no friends like that.. Without the internet, I haven't been talking to a friend for ages! I miss many people!

Melbourne is pretty awesome, with nice parks along with the cool urban stuff. But once again, there'll always be pros and cons, and ups and downs for me. I get somewhat stressed out on some occasions, talking with the white people or the Aussies. Not only them in fact, the chinese looking people here have become like the white people anyway, in terms of accent and behaviour. I can only say it has not been all natural the past week or so, trying to have a conversation the way the people here do. Doesn't feel natural for me, that is. I kinda feel like I have the norm imposed on me, but actually no. The word 'imposed' is too negative. Because I have a need to adapt quickly right? Yeah, that's why I feel like the ways of the majority here is gonna overrule the maintaining of individuality for now. It's only when I know this place better, and I know who my friends are, that I can get stable ground again? I guess I felt forced to chat up with people the way they do in the first week since arriving. But it's less of a big deal now. Much lesser. The pressure may go up again when I formally start classes though.

The enrolment procedures were a bit stressful, and a bore. Did it on my own. Quite proud of that fact ^-^People in Melbourne are known to be friendly. Yeah, mostly they are. But there was this unpleasant phone call whereby this rmit admin person just went "you didn't listen properly at the talk". Yeah right. Like that helps to achieve anything.. So because I was in the school library anyway, I decided I could get help from anyone else besides her, so I didn't bother to talk to her long. Ended the call quickly, then just used my common sense to the max, and did the online enrolment procedures on my own lor! *triumphant grin* Independence is seen as good, but sometimes it's because a person feels that relying on some other person for help is just a no-no. Yet when other people were being mean, I sometimes show more cowardice somemore. Appear apologetic and all. No!! I should be even fiercer if other people are being unreasonably mean. Hehe. Well, I just know I always have more to learn.

Ending this post here. How are you, my friends?? I hope we talk soon?

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 8:27 PM

Dear all,

I have finally gotten my internet connection over here in Melbourne!!!!! That also means I have gotten part of my LIFE back too!!! Lol~ I never realized it was this important to me. It just gets me up and kicking. :P The things I do on the net really mean something to me okay.. I need my movies, drama and music so bad sia.. The net provides me with those, as well as lots of laughs and inspiring moments and everything! I have felt kinda dead to the world w/o the internet also, feel like I have no friends like that.. Without the internet, I haven't been talking to a friend for ages! I miss many people!

Melbourne is pretty awesome, with nice parks along with the cool urban stuff. But once again, there'll always be pros and cons, and ups and downs for me. I get somewhat stressed out on some occasions, talking with the white people or the Aussies. Not only them in fact, the chinese looking people here have become like the white people anyway, in terms of accent and behaviour. I can only say it has not been all natural the past week or so, trying to have a conversation the way the people here do. Doesn't feel natural for me, that is. I kinda feel like I have the norm imposed on me, but actually no. The word 'imposed' is too negative. Because I have a need to adapt quickly right? Yeah, that's why I feel like the ways of the majority here is gonna overrule the maintaining of individuality for now. It's only when I know this place better, and I know who my friends are, that I can get stable ground again? I guess I felt forced to chat up with people the way they do in the first week since arriving. But it's less of a big deal now. Much lesser. The pressure may go up again when I formally start classes though.

The enrolment procedures were a bit stressful, and a bore. Did it on my own. Quite proud of that fact ^-^People in Melbourne are known to be friendly. Yeah, mostly they are. But there was this unpleasant phone call whereby this rmit admin person just went "you didn't listen properly at the talk". Yeah right. Like that helps to achieve anything.. So because I was in the school library anyway, I decided I could get help from anyone else besides her, so I didn't bother to talk to her long. Ended the call quickly, then just used my common sense to the max, and did the online enrolment procedures on my own lor! *triumphant grin* Independence is seen as good, but sometimes it's because a person feels that relying on some other person for help is just a no-no. Yet when other people were being mean, I sometimes show more cowardice somemore. Appear apologetic and all. No!! I should be even fiercer if other people are being unreasonably mean. Hehe. Well, I just know I always have more to learn.

Ending this post here. How are you, my friends?? I hope we talk soon?