/ 5:48 PM

Today's a Saturday, and I'm not going out today...
My brother's out again lar. And my dad just went off for a short flight...
Another day that I tend to waste my time... Sometimes I'm good on my own, and sometimes it seems like the day's gonna be pointless again? I claim I love my movies, my books, my music. But I can get tired of them of course. I skip pages of a book, get bored while watching shows I would think I like to watch, and get lazy to look for new good music. I get confused and contradictory, that it's sometimes easier not to think. The first years you develop mental consciousness start put you on the path to insanity... Unless you shut out who you are, and build up another personality which is acceptable to the whole of society... Will it make things better if one moves on? Now I'm at the stage of having a temporary but full-time job, and I'm tired of it. And it's just a temporary job. Dang, I really wonder what else I'll be able to take then.
My family makes me tired too... Am I allowed to say that? But I've said it... That's almost all I'm facing now... To work and back home. I really love my dad. But, he wouldn't know how to talk to me. Talk talk talk. So I see the importance of talking and communication. It's ironic then, that I don't get all the small talk that people make. Each minute has to be filled with small talk, there's no allowance for any comfortable silences. On falling silent, people get anxious. You just need to say whatever crap you can come up with. I know this myself too. This seems to be something I have to learn. No wonder in the more angsty songs about life, certain words just come into mind so often. One of them is 'lonely'. The other is 'tired'.
OK! That's it with this post! Hehe this would seem like a weird way of concluding this post, but that is how it is for me. I'm not depressed at this moment, as you would surely think.. There are just times like this, maybe everyday too. Today, I'm just being blunt. *pulls a monkey face*
I know what I might do after this. I might just take a walk to the vcd rental place, and borrow the 'Brokeback Mountain' dvd. Haha.. My colleagues have brought the topic up at lunchtime, and since all along I've wanted to watch it anyway.. But I have a feeling that I might like the Youtube music videos of the movie better than the movie itself.. Hehe.. Well, the movie is gonna be slow, and I'm not too patient.. Sometimes I do find that particular scenes of a movie look really great, but when the whole movie is put together it is somehow not so great.. Some of the scenes in 'Brokeback' look raw and moving, but I hope the entire plot development doesn't bore me too much.. I guess I'm in the mood for it now anyway.. Can sit through it, and just have the emotions swayed together with the couple in the movie.. Hehe.. I was just half-heartedly watching a korean drama, when I chanced upon a Brokeback Mountain music video on Youtube. It's partly why I was instigated to write this blogpost. The song in the video was Lifehouse's 'Breathing'.
Sigh. Why does it have to be this tiring??? It gets to all of us... It only varies in terms of how much you can deny, or the better one would be, how much of it you can get over and above of...
Repeated cycle, this is.. Okay I'll stop here. Tomorrow I might go for a karoke session if possible, and to a bazaar called the 'Market for Artists and Designers' (I think that's what it's called), and the day might feel very different.. Sigh, silly me.. How sian it is to feel like I'm constantly swinging.. Perhaps on a spot that never changes position.. What a metaphor.. Don't know what I'm doing, don't know what I'm talking about. That could be the most accurate thing you could say about life. Lol.
Class 95 has this recorded voice that would go 'Brought to you by the Association of People Who Don't Know What They're Talking About'. That's why I thought of the above, hehe
Ok, bye now! I'll come back with another blog of a varied mood next time! :S

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 5:48 PM

Today's a Saturday, and I'm not going out today...
My brother's out again lar. And my dad just went off for a short flight...
Another day that I tend to waste my time... Sometimes I'm good on my own, and sometimes it seems like the day's gonna be pointless again? I claim I love my movies, my books, my music. But I can get tired of them of course. I skip pages of a book, get bored while watching shows I would think I like to watch, and get lazy to look for new good music. I get confused and contradictory, that it's sometimes easier not to think. The first years you develop mental consciousness start put you on the path to insanity... Unless you shut out who you are, and build up another personality which is acceptable to the whole of society... Will it make things better if one moves on? Now I'm at the stage of having a temporary but full-time job, and I'm tired of it. And it's just a temporary job. Dang, I really wonder what else I'll be able to take then.
My family makes me tired too... Am I allowed to say that? But I've said it... That's almost all I'm facing now... To work and back home. I really love my dad. But, he wouldn't know how to talk to me. Talk talk talk. So I see the importance of talking and communication. It's ironic then, that I don't get all the small talk that people make. Each minute has to be filled with small talk, there's no allowance for any comfortable silences. On falling silent, people get anxious. You just need to say whatever crap you can come up with. I know this myself too. This seems to be something I have to learn. No wonder in the more angsty songs about life, certain words just come into mind so often. One of them is 'lonely'. The other is 'tired'.
OK! That's it with this post! Hehe this would seem like a weird way of concluding this post, but that is how it is for me. I'm not depressed at this moment, as you would surely think.. There are just times like this, maybe everyday too. Today, I'm just being blunt. *pulls a monkey face*
I know what I might do after this. I might just take a walk to the vcd rental place, and borrow the 'Brokeback Mountain' dvd. Haha.. My colleagues have brought the topic up at lunchtime, and since all along I've wanted to watch it anyway.. But I have a feeling that I might like the Youtube music videos of the movie better than the movie itself.. Hehe.. Well, the movie is gonna be slow, and I'm not too patient.. Sometimes I do find that particular scenes of a movie look really great, but when the whole movie is put together it is somehow not so great.. Some of the scenes in 'Brokeback' look raw and moving, but I hope the entire plot development doesn't bore me too much.. I guess I'm in the mood for it now anyway.. Can sit through it, and just have the emotions swayed together with the couple in the movie.. Hehe.. I was just half-heartedly watching a korean drama, when I chanced upon a Brokeback Mountain music video on Youtube. It's partly why I was instigated to write this blogpost. The song in the video was Lifehouse's 'Breathing'.
Sigh. Why does it have to be this tiring??? It gets to all of us... It only varies in terms of how much you can deny, or the better one would be, how much of it you can get over and above of...
Repeated cycle, this is.. Okay I'll stop here. Tomorrow I might go for a karoke session if possible, and to a bazaar called the 'Market for Artists and Designers' (I think that's what it's called), and the day might feel very different.. Sigh, silly me.. How sian it is to feel like I'm constantly swinging.. Perhaps on a spot that never changes position.. What a metaphor.. Don't know what I'm doing, don't know what I'm talking about. That could be the most accurate thing you could say about life. Lol.
Class 95 has this recorded voice that would go 'Brought to you by the Association of People Who Don't Know What They're Talking About'. That's why I thought of the above, hehe
Ok, bye now! I'll come back with another blog of a varied mood next time! :S