/ 11:00 PM

Oh man!! I was working at Mediacorp again today, then I turned on my music player and heard an interview with Relient K on FM98.7! And then I went across to the Radio Building, wondering if the interview could be live.. I didn't come across any group of persons in the recording studios.. The studios seemed to have nothing special going on.. So that was not a live interview? I didn't get an answer to all my wondering.. I didn't ask my colleagues either.. It would probably seem weird to them.. I myself get so excited over all this.. Well, they sang with Switchfoot! And I trust I'll become a fan of Relient K in no time too! To think I might have come across the people who make great music that I love.. The people who come all the way from America.. And there's the chance that they might have come to Mediacorp where I could just walk over to have a peek at how they're like! (hehe) Just like the case of Chris Daughtry who came down to CNA the other time.. I think of how in concerts, they're surrounded by so many people, you know? Whereas if they get an interview at Mediacorp, there's a chance of standing close to them like any other person, instead of having the singer high up on some stage. Oh man, Relient K! I don't know if I missed seeing them in person or not! I wonder how it'll be like to mix with them.. Get to know their music, share their experience..

I think it's a perfectly understandable thing that I should get excited.. I have admiration for those people! And that is where my standards lie! Meaning, I would wanna work towards something as worthwhile as that too.. I sometimes wonder why I don't see more excitement on all us people's faces. Heartfelt excitement, that is. And not the kind of excitement of someone who's just trying to hype things up. Heartfelt excitement does not necessarily have to be outwardly expressed. If it's something you feel for, the radiance will show on one's face without necessarily saying anything. But, of course I don't think we are able to appear excited and happy all the time. You could tell from my blog even that I myself don't do that at all. But isn't it nice to spot some true excitement shining through on someone else's face, just out of the blue? On the other hand, there's the idea that showing how you feel through your facial expression so openly, can make you vulnerable.. Opening up like that is like opening yourself to other people's personal attacks..

Anyway! I just think that having something you get truly excited over (non-material things, gossip etc don't count!)... makes you really cute. Lol! That's not exactly what I intend to say.. You just have the bit of life going in you, you know? The person would seem that he/she has something that keeps one going.. That goal one still has in his mind's grasp in the continuing journey of his life.. That's how one can control the passing of his time and his life, I think.. Careful not to let your whole life be equivalent to nothing.. I've come across this question posed by some other persons.. "Why is it that things can just be okay always?" It doesn't just have to be okay! It can be good, great!

Let me backtrack a little.. Even if you don't achieve anything of sky-high standards, you still owned that goal.. That goal was what you set out to achieve, for your own sake too.. At the end of it all, you don't owe anybody.. And you won't owe yourself any explanation with regards to how you have lived your life either.. At the end of it all, you can't take any of your material possessions.. You can only count on your thoughts and your peace to take you away in a clean sweep, with no remaining longings for whatever's left on earth.. If you have calm possession of your state of mind, and can say this before you're about to go.. That though being a person who has standards and goals gave you more shit to deal with, coz being a 'go-getter' you tend to actually throw yourself into perils.. But despite this, you made all the decisions yourself, and experienced hell of a lot fun(hellish fun it is), and so it is fine. You're ready to go. ......If one can say all that, you are the greatest. Well, now this reminds me of the movie "La Vie En Rose"..

What are the things that rock your life? (erm.. pun? :P) Have you got standards? Careful not to mix up your standards with the world's...

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 11:00 PM

Oh man!! I was working at Mediacorp again today, then I turned on my music player and heard an interview with Relient K on FM98.7! And then I went across to the Radio Building, wondering if the interview could be live.. I didn't come across any group of persons in the recording studios.. The studios seemed to have nothing special going on.. So that was not a live interview? I didn't get an answer to all my wondering.. I didn't ask my colleagues either.. It would probably seem weird to them.. I myself get so excited over all this.. Well, they sang with Switchfoot! And I trust I'll become a fan of Relient K in no time too! To think I might have come across the people who make great music that I love.. The people who come all the way from America.. And there's the chance that they might have come to Mediacorp where I could just walk over to have a peek at how they're like! (hehe) Just like the case of Chris Daughtry who came down to CNA the other time.. I think of how in concerts, they're surrounded by so many people, you know? Whereas if they get an interview at Mediacorp, there's a chance of standing close to them like any other person, instead of having the singer high up on some stage. Oh man, Relient K! I don't know if I missed seeing them in person or not! I wonder how it'll be like to mix with them.. Get to know their music, share their experience..

I think it's a perfectly understandable thing that I should get excited.. I have admiration for those people! And that is where my standards lie! Meaning, I would wanna work towards something as worthwhile as that too.. I sometimes wonder why I don't see more excitement on all us people's faces. Heartfelt excitement, that is. And not the kind of excitement of someone who's just trying to hype things up. Heartfelt excitement does not necessarily have to be outwardly expressed. If it's something you feel for, the radiance will show on one's face without necessarily saying anything. But, of course I don't think we are able to appear excited and happy all the time. You could tell from my blog even that I myself don't do that at all. But isn't it nice to spot some true excitement shining through on someone else's face, just out of the blue? On the other hand, there's the idea that showing how you feel through your facial expression so openly, can make you vulnerable.. Opening up like that is like opening yourself to other people's personal attacks..

Anyway! I just think that having something you get truly excited over (non-material things, gossip etc don't count!)... makes you really cute. Lol! That's not exactly what I intend to say.. You just have the bit of life going in you, you know? The person would seem that he/she has something that keeps one going.. That goal one still has in his mind's grasp in the continuing journey of his life.. That's how one can control the passing of his time and his life, I think.. Careful not to let your whole life be equivalent to nothing.. I've come across this question posed by some other persons.. "Why is it that things can just be okay always?" It doesn't just have to be okay! It can be good, great!

Let me backtrack a little.. Even if you don't achieve anything of sky-high standards, you still owned that goal.. That goal was what you set out to achieve, for your own sake too.. At the end of it all, you don't owe anybody.. And you won't owe yourself any explanation with regards to how you have lived your life either.. At the end of it all, you can't take any of your material possessions.. You can only count on your thoughts and your peace to take you away in a clean sweep, with no remaining longings for whatever's left on earth.. If you have calm possession of your state of mind, and can say this before you're about to go.. That though being a person who has standards and goals gave you more shit to deal with, coz being a 'go-getter' you tend to actually throw yourself into perils.. But despite this, you made all the decisions yourself, and experienced hell of a lot fun(hellish fun it is), and so it is fine. You're ready to go. ......If one can say all that, you are the greatest. Well, now this reminds me of the movie "La Vie En Rose"..

What are the things that rock your life? (erm.. pun? :P) Have you got standards? Careful not to mix up your standards with the world's...