/ 11:24 PM

Geez.. I'm pretty agitated now.. Just exchanged quite heated speech with my brother yet again, with regards to the part-time job I'm looking out for now.. Other than asking him abt practical matters, we barely talk.. Does he have to be so unfriendly and serious.. But that's just the way he is.. But even that is not so bad.. He is real practical when telling me what job I should look for.. This time, my job hunting is already a whole lot different from last year.. I did take some of his advice already.. Last year, all the part-time jobs I could get were at Orchard Cineleisure and Adidas.. In the end, I took up the Adidas job as you know yeah.. And that wasn't too wise.. Still, it's ok coz last year's circumstances is diff from this year's.. This time, my job hunting had these as my more impt considerations: Learning something that wld be in line with what I wish to do in future, and secondly, now is also the time to think of how I want my resume to look like (coz there's not many yrs left till we look for proper full-time work, and the accumulation of work experience to leave a gd impression with the resume shld start abt now).. And so, I also came to agree that I wld have the scope of jobs I'm looking for, include the companies that just SOUND or LOOK nice on the first mention..

And then I went on to put in quite a lot of effort really! Just for getting the best part-time job possible this time.. I emailed local film production companies, then the Singapore Press, then local theatre companies too.. All were for requesting for internship with those companies lor.. In total, I tried 6 times.. Raintree Pictures, J Team Productns, FIRST magazine, SPH, W!LD RICE, The Necessary Stage.. Only Raintree and Necessary Stage replied.. Raintree replied to say they had no vacancies.. Necessary Stage said they cld only consider taking me in as a volunteer for the Singapore Fringe Festival.. It's an arts event.. Also good actually.. And I thought the volunteer thing was a sure thing.. But that isn't even certain either.. The first reply said they may take me in as a 'liaison officer'or 'front-of-house manager/crew'.. Sounded quite exciting leh.. Then I next found out that I can't be sure abt this too.. And this event is just for the period of 30 Jan - 11 Feb..

6 emails, and I complain this much already.. Yet, got anyone else crazy as me to even do this much or not? Haha, sigh.. And I'm not even finished.. Today, I went down to Orchard lor.. Went to the more high-end bookstores, namely Borders and Kinokuniya.. No chance lah!

Lastly, I resorted to going to Cathy Cineleisure at Orchard.. And guess what? It's likely a 'yes'.. For the second time.. And this is one whole year later.. Does God die die want me to work there? My brother said it's bcoz nobody wants to work there.. Look at the things he says.. And it's not that I dun give my brother's words any validity.. He really tends to be a wet blanket so very often.. But yeah, again.. I always have to say this, don't I.. I know he means good.. (And ok, he does) But isn't this it's-all-for-your-own-good thing becoming too old a saying? Don't we think abt what's good for ourselves too? How to tell who will end up being right? It's best to keep all options open then, I guess.. And only with time and personal experimentation (failures possibly included), then we'll be able to know whose opinion is better.. And hopefully it wun be too late to go along with that opinion after all that experimentation.. And I have committed my usual habit of talking abt the matter in general.. Somewhat like a philosopher? Ahaha alright, I should cut it out

As I was saying though, I think it wld be best to keep all options open in a discussion.. A discussion wld grow into an argument when one party feels like one's input into the discussion is being blocked off.. A discussion is supposed to flow from one person to another in the first place.. My brother's tone makes me just shut myself up many a time..

All those emailing and seeking the bookstore jobs was good advice.. I took it, didn't I.. I'm a very open-minded person, ya know.. He also have to know that I have my own common sense to seek the best part-time job for myself what! Then part of this job hunting deal shld be left to me with trust mah! And not make me feel like simply shutting up.. He suggests paperwork in an office environment.. But that's such rigid work, and not useful in future right! Though the company's name can be mentioned in the resume next time, doing it for this reason and solely this reason, doesn't make me too thrilled..

But nevermind, he didn't go on and on about doing a paperwork job, so it's ok.. He says I shld go and leave my contacts with a job agency.. Ok, perhaps that, I can do.. But that leaves me with the dilemma of whether I shld take up the Cineleisure job or not.. The staff will probably contact me soon.. And I must work for a min. period of 3 mths at Cineleisure.. After that, only left so few mths to try out other jobs.. Another problem my brother thrusted upon me, increasing this dilemma.. But Cineleisure is the only one who is possibly saying a 'yes' to me after all my tries to get a job! So are you thinking I'm gonna jump at this Cineleisure job bcoz I'm desperate? Are you feeling quite helpless to stop me from being desperate like that, and yelling in your head, "No, Lyvia! Don't be such an idiot to be desperate to go and sweep up popcorn other ppl spilled on the floor" ? Btw perhaps you can guess that my brother painted that kind of picture for me.. As in, the words "sweep up popcorn other ppl spilled on the floor" were quoted from him..>=(

But dang, it's not that I don't know all this! Yet those others working at Cineleisure seem to be fine ppl(but who knows), and that may make working there a little better.. And there's the cinemas I love..

Who could thought there cld be so much to looking for a part-time job.. Or maybe, only me myself cld make such a big deal out of small matters.. Haha! I shall call this "the chronicles of searching for a part-time job".. Lolz..

SHEESH! What to do though? Upon assessment, my decision is out. I think I shall go to the job agency early tmr and find out more.. My brother even said he thought that asking for work at Times bookstore (Tampines Mall one) wld be better than working at Cineleisure.. I don't think so lor.. There's this position called 'customer service officer' at the Cathay.. I'll just call myself that next time if I take up the cathay job.. Haha.. Sounds better than working at Times bookstore yeah! So his suggestion for me to work at Times is out.. To the job agency I'll go then! See ya next post

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 11:24 PM

Geez.. I'm pretty agitated now.. Just exchanged quite heated speech with my brother yet again, with regards to the part-time job I'm looking out for now.. Other than asking him abt practical matters, we barely talk.. Does he have to be so unfriendly and serious.. But that's just the way he is.. But even that is not so bad.. He is real practical when telling me what job I should look for.. This time, my job hunting is already a whole lot different from last year.. I did take some of his advice already.. Last year, all the part-time jobs I could get were at Orchard Cineleisure and Adidas.. In the end, I took up the Adidas job as you know yeah.. And that wasn't too wise.. Still, it's ok coz last year's circumstances is diff from this year's.. This time, my job hunting had these as my more impt considerations: Learning something that wld be in line with what I wish to do in future, and secondly, now is also the time to think of how I want my resume to look like (coz there's not many yrs left till we look for proper full-time work, and the accumulation of work experience to leave a gd impression with the resume shld start abt now).. And so, I also came to agree that I wld have the scope of jobs I'm looking for, include the companies that just SOUND or LOOK nice on the first mention..

And then I went on to put in quite a lot of effort really! Just for getting the best part-time job possible this time.. I emailed local film production companies, then the Singapore Press, then local theatre companies too.. All were for requesting for internship with those companies lor.. In total, I tried 6 times.. Raintree Pictures, J Team Productns, FIRST magazine, SPH, W!LD RICE, The Necessary Stage.. Only Raintree and Necessary Stage replied.. Raintree replied to say they had no vacancies.. Necessary Stage said they cld only consider taking me in as a volunteer for the Singapore Fringe Festival.. It's an arts event.. Also good actually.. And I thought the volunteer thing was a sure thing.. But that isn't even certain either.. The first reply said they may take me in as a 'liaison officer'or 'front-of-house manager/crew'.. Sounded quite exciting leh.. Then I next found out that I can't be sure abt this too.. And this event is just for the period of 30 Jan - 11 Feb..

6 emails, and I complain this much already.. Yet, got anyone else crazy as me to even do this much or not? Haha, sigh.. And I'm not even finished.. Today, I went down to Orchard lor.. Went to the more high-end bookstores, namely Borders and Kinokuniya.. No chance lah!

Lastly, I resorted to going to Cathy Cineleisure at Orchard.. And guess what? It's likely a 'yes'.. For the second time.. And this is one whole year later.. Does God die die want me to work there? My brother said it's bcoz nobody wants to work there.. Look at the things he says.. And it's not that I dun give my brother's words any validity.. He really tends to be a wet blanket so very often.. But yeah, again.. I always have to say this, don't I.. I know he means good.. (And ok, he does) But isn't this it's-all-for-your-own-good thing becoming too old a saying? Don't we think abt what's good for ourselves too? How to tell who will end up being right? It's best to keep all options open then, I guess.. And only with time and personal experimentation (failures possibly included), then we'll be able to know whose opinion is better.. And hopefully it wun be too late to go along with that opinion after all that experimentation.. And I have committed my usual habit of talking abt the matter in general.. Somewhat like a philosopher? Ahaha alright, I should cut it out

As I was saying though, I think it wld be best to keep all options open in a discussion.. A discussion wld grow into an argument when one party feels like one's input into the discussion is being blocked off.. A discussion is supposed to flow from one person to another in the first place.. My brother's tone makes me just shut myself up many a time..

All those emailing and seeking the bookstore jobs was good advice.. I took it, didn't I.. I'm a very open-minded person, ya know.. He also have to know that I have my own common sense to seek the best part-time job for myself what! Then part of this job hunting deal shld be left to me with trust mah! And not make me feel like simply shutting up.. He suggests paperwork in an office environment.. But that's such rigid work, and not useful in future right! Though the company's name can be mentioned in the resume next time, doing it for this reason and solely this reason, doesn't make me too thrilled..

But nevermind, he didn't go on and on about doing a paperwork job, so it's ok.. He says I shld go and leave my contacts with a job agency.. Ok, perhaps that, I can do.. But that leaves me with the dilemma of whether I shld take up the Cineleisure job or not.. The staff will probably contact me soon.. And I must work for a min. period of 3 mths at Cineleisure.. After that, only left so few mths to try out other jobs.. Another problem my brother thrusted upon me, increasing this dilemma.. But Cineleisure is the only one who is possibly saying a 'yes' to me after all my tries to get a job! So are you thinking I'm gonna jump at this Cineleisure job bcoz I'm desperate? Are you feeling quite helpless to stop me from being desperate like that, and yelling in your head, "No, Lyvia! Don't be such an idiot to be desperate to go and sweep up popcorn other ppl spilled on the floor" ? Btw perhaps you can guess that my brother painted that kind of picture for me.. As in, the words "sweep up popcorn other ppl spilled on the floor" were quoted from him..>=(

But dang, it's not that I don't know all this! Yet those others working at Cineleisure seem to be fine ppl(but who knows), and that may make working there a little better.. And there's the cinemas I love..

Who could thought there cld be so much to looking for a part-time job.. Or maybe, only me myself cld make such a big deal out of small matters.. Haha! I shall call this "the chronicles of searching for a part-time job".. Lolz..

SHEESH! What to do though? Upon assessment, my decision is out. I think I shall go to the job agency early tmr and find out more.. My brother even said he thought that asking for work at Times bookstore (Tampines Mall one) wld be better than working at Cineleisure.. I don't think so lor.. There's this position called 'customer service officer' at the Cathay.. I'll just call myself that next time if I take up the cathay job.. Haha.. Sounds better than working at Times bookstore yeah! So his suggestion for me to work at Times is out.. To the job agency I'll go then! See ya next post