/ 1:07 PM

Here are my rants for the day.. This is a period of a loss of self control.. Over your will power, your mind, everything.. Exams dun really make me feel that I've grown smarter, coz in times of nervousness, or after sitting through 3 hour papers when my mind gets completely warped, I will sprout all kinds of nonsense among friends.. And talk abt the most random stuff, which I myself see no head nor tail of.. Haha.. In other words, I will just say something out of the blue, and leave the topic hanging too.. Continuation of mental diarrhoea even after the exam..=S

In this period of time, occasionally when I look in the mirror, I looked so pale, like my face was about to fade away.. Sounds like a horror show yar..=X And I'll think to myself, "Oh so poor thing.." Lolz.. So studying is like a slimming programme also.. Think of it in this positive way lor.. Haha.. So actually it is possible to slim down, all you have to do is to make yourself unhappy.. Ahaha..

And with regards to the AQ question of 'To what extent do you want to be free?', an alternative way I can think of in answering the question is to say: I want to be free such that I need not confine myself in a depressing and uninspiring exam hall, with absolutely no feel of aesthetics. This is because it does not make sense to be placed under such circumstances, when it would be much more conducive for personal development if one is allowed to have the freedom to adhere to one's prefered time for sleeping and waking, and also be allowed to conduct one's own learning in a freer and more willing spirit.

Haha yeah.. My language in the essay paper today did not even reach the standard of the above para though.. I used really simplistic language.. I hope it's not -too- simplistic to the marker..=( Actually I was just thinking of something Neil Gaiman had wrote, about the life he leads as a writer.. He can choose to sleep and wake up at any time he wants.. He mostly writes in the wee hours of the night, and sleeps away in the daytime.. I'm so envious of that!

But anyway, let me just mention, that this morning when we gathered to hear what Mrs Vetri had to say.. Now that I think of it, it seemed like a situation when campers would gather around camp instructors before setting off or something.. Like survivor camp yarh.. Lolz.. And then there's the fact that we were wearing our school uniforms, it can be likened to a scene out of.. Battle Royale! Hahah.. But of course in the morning, I was feeling kan cheong, and only now then I can find amusement out of that.. Perhaps I am really very much a visual person.. That's why I'm into movies.. Yet have to first pull through this exam system..

Now.. Let's show that we have strength in us, strength of willpower and strength of mind..>=)

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 1:07 PM

Here are my rants for the day.. This is a period of a loss of self control.. Over your will power, your mind, everything.. Exams dun really make me feel that I've grown smarter, coz in times of nervousness, or after sitting through 3 hour papers when my mind gets completely warped, I will sprout all kinds of nonsense among friends.. And talk abt the most random stuff, which I myself see no head nor tail of.. Haha.. In other words, I will just say something out of the blue, and leave the topic hanging too.. Continuation of mental diarrhoea even after the exam..=S

In this period of time, occasionally when I look in the mirror, I looked so pale, like my face was about to fade away.. Sounds like a horror show yar..=X And I'll think to myself, "Oh so poor thing.." Lolz.. So studying is like a slimming programme also.. Think of it in this positive way lor.. Haha.. So actually it is possible to slim down, all you have to do is to make yourself unhappy.. Ahaha..

And with regards to the AQ question of 'To what extent do you want to be free?', an alternative way I can think of in answering the question is to say: I want to be free such that I need not confine myself in a depressing and uninspiring exam hall, with absolutely no feel of aesthetics. This is because it does not make sense to be placed under such circumstances, when it would be much more conducive for personal development if one is allowed to have the freedom to adhere to one's prefered time for sleeping and waking, and also be allowed to conduct one's own learning in a freer and more willing spirit.

Haha yeah.. My language in the essay paper today did not even reach the standard of the above para though.. I used really simplistic language.. I hope it's not -too- simplistic to the marker..=( Actually I was just thinking of something Neil Gaiman had wrote, about the life he leads as a writer.. He can choose to sleep and wake up at any time he wants.. He mostly writes in the wee hours of the night, and sleeps away in the daytime.. I'm so envious of that!

But anyway, let me just mention, that this morning when we gathered to hear what Mrs Vetri had to say.. Now that I think of it, it seemed like a situation when campers would gather around camp instructors before setting off or something.. Like survivor camp yarh.. Lolz.. And then there's the fact that we were wearing our school uniforms, it can be likened to a scene out of.. Battle Royale! Hahah.. But of course in the morning, I was feeling kan cheong, and only now then I can find amusement out of that.. Perhaps I am really very much a visual person.. That's why I'm into movies.. Yet have to first pull through this exam system..

Now.. Let's show that we have strength in us, strength of willpower and strength of mind..>=)