/ 7:28 PM

When one is not so able to show one's love in the right ways, the other party will not be able to get the message, and it all becomes quite futile.. I'm still coping with the changes in my home.. Sometimes I'm able to take it all very naturally and juz continue living my life as it is.. I know my parents' love for me.. My mum loved me.. I think I can believe that really.. But we had such a troubled relationship, with the screaming, the anger and all.. I couldn't stop all those exchanges of angry words, no matter how much I wished it could have stopped.. And now, the situation can never be made better.....

And now with my father and brother, we all are still kind of restrained in showing concern for each other.. There has never been an openly loving environment in my home.. The key factor for that is to have communication that comes naturally and comfortably.. To know all that's going on in each other's life.. That then forms a real solid relationship.. But all of us being so different as we are, understanding of each other's chr doesn't come naturally either.. So even if one knows one's family will be there to provide support, one may not share about the daily on-goings in one's life right.. As a result, one still pretty much keeps to oneself, as does the rest of the family.. My dad had raised his voice quite unreasonably just now.. And so I juz had these thoughts coming.. But I wun say that I was blameless then.. And my dad very quickly makes peace, for he will soften and treat everything as normal again.. But I was juz reminded of the ways my mum had shown her concern.. She was actually overly concerned and worried abt so many things.. Even in juz ensuring I took my vitamin tablets and all, she cld repeat herself so many times.. It got stressful instead many a time, for her and for the rest of my family.. So in trying to care for our health, my mum had instead stressed us all from time to time.. And during that period, I had wondered whether love could be shown more through communication and getting to understand each other better, instead of all that.. But now I will juz let it go.. As time goes by, I think I will understand more than I do now.. I think during last year as well as this year, I have gone through more and my understanding of all things in general has also been solidified, yet it's still changing.. Well, that's how life is supposed to be isn't it.. Yeah ok, I'm off yarh.. Gonna go turn on some music

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 7:28 PM

When one is not so able to show one's love in the right ways, the other party will not be able to get the message, and it all becomes quite futile.. I'm still coping with the changes in my home.. Sometimes I'm able to take it all very naturally and juz continue living my life as it is.. I know my parents' love for me.. My mum loved me.. I think I can believe that really.. But we had such a troubled relationship, with the screaming, the anger and all.. I couldn't stop all those exchanges of angry words, no matter how much I wished it could have stopped.. And now, the situation can never be made better.....

And now with my father and brother, we all are still kind of restrained in showing concern for each other.. There has never been an openly loving environment in my home.. The key factor for that is to have communication that comes naturally and comfortably.. To know all that's going on in each other's life.. That then forms a real solid relationship.. But all of us being so different as we are, understanding of each other's chr doesn't come naturally either.. So even if one knows one's family will be there to provide support, one may not share about the daily on-goings in one's life right.. As a result, one still pretty much keeps to oneself, as does the rest of the family.. My dad had raised his voice quite unreasonably just now.. And so I juz had these thoughts coming.. But I wun say that I was blameless then.. And my dad very quickly makes peace, for he will soften and treat everything as normal again.. But I was juz reminded of the ways my mum had shown her concern.. She was actually overly concerned and worried abt so many things.. Even in juz ensuring I took my vitamin tablets and all, she cld repeat herself so many times.. It got stressful instead many a time, for her and for the rest of my family.. So in trying to care for our health, my mum had instead stressed us all from time to time.. And during that period, I had wondered whether love could be shown more through communication and getting to understand each other better, instead of all that.. But now I will juz let it go.. As time goes by, I think I will understand more than I do now.. I think during last year as well as this year, I have gone through more and my understanding of all things in general has also been solidified, yet it's still changing.. Well, that's how life is supposed to be isn't it.. Yeah ok, I'm off yarh.. Gonna go turn on some music