/ 1:38 AM

Oh man.. What a long day it has been.. Not that I had gotten much work done though ^^"

I still get so miserable studying sometimes.. If it's gonna be all misery for the next few mths up to the A lvls, and even after that with all the worrying abt how I'll fare.. Shucks, nothing can be worse than that.. One problem I have is that my mind stalls while doing work.. The wheels juz dun seem to be turn in my head.. That's no natural urge for that to happen.. And yet I'll still keep writing.. Coz I dun have the tendency to juz give up on myself.. But it's so so painstaking when there's nth to excite my mind into thinking, and yet there I am still struggling to write.. And I'll feel the piece of work juz gets worse and worse, and obviously it doesn't get any better since my mindset is already set as that.. I definitely deserve better than this.. I deserve better grades, and I deserve to feel better abt myself..

In everything I do, I've been the kind of person who looks on the bright side.. It's the only way to get thru all the tough phases in life.. It's the only way to go in my point of view, and it's the way of life that I choose.. So I shld get myself to enjoy studying as much as possible? That's gotta be one of the craziest things I have ever said..X) Maybe I shld let the mood for studying come as it is.. I watched the movie 'Taxi' just now, and Jimmy Fallon's bad driving was due to the fact that he did not let himself juz naturally get into the mood for driving isn't it? Instead he made himself so tensed up everytime before he even started driving.. Haha.. I love the movie man! Watched it the second time today in fact =) Jimmy Fallon is damn funny! I think I like him more than Jim Carrey.. Jimmy Fallon was also so hilarious in the MTV Awards parody of 'The Da Vinci Code'.. Oh and, the fast car scenes in 'Taxi' were cool and wicked too!!

But yeah, back to what I was talking abt, I hope the remaining mths to the 'A's is not gonna put too much strain on my emotional state..

I tend to keep trying.. I dun like to be saying things like "this is so hard, I'm not doing it", or "I just hate this, not doing this either!".. Such comments sound superficial, so I control myself from saying such things as much as possible.. Instead I'll prefer to tell others sth like this, "A lvls? Haiya.. Been there done that. Didn't defeat me at all." That'll sound pretty cool.. Haha.. Another crazy thought of mine =S

Well ok! I'm off again! See ya.

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 1:38 AM

Oh man.. What a long day it has been.. Not that I had gotten much work done though ^^"

I still get so miserable studying sometimes.. If it's gonna be all misery for the next few mths up to the A lvls, and even after that with all the worrying abt how I'll fare.. Shucks, nothing can be worse than that.. One problem I have is that my mind stalls while doing work.. The wheels juz dun seem to be turn in my head.. That's no natural urge for that to happen.. And yet I'll still keep writing.. Coz I dun have the tendency to juz give up on myself.. But it's so so painstaking when there's nth to excite my mind into thinking, and yet there I am still struggling to write.. And I'll feel the piece of work juz gets worse and worse, and obviously it doesn't get any better since my mindset is already set as that.. I definitely deserve better than this.. I deserve better grades, and I deserve to feel better abt myself..

In everything I do, I've been the kind of person who looks on the bright side.. It's the only way to get thru all the tough phases in life.. It's the only way to go in my point of view, and it's the way of life that I choose.. So I shld get myself to enjoy studying as much as possible? That's gotta be one of the craziest things I have ever said..X) Maybe I shld let the mood for studying come as it is.. I watched the movie 'Taxi' just now, and Jimmy Fallon's bad driving was due to the fact that he did not let himself juz naturally get into the mood for driving isn't it? Instead he made himself so tensed up everytime before he even started driving.. Haha.. I love the movie man! Watched it the second time today in fact =) Jimmy Fallon is damn funny! I think I like him more than Jim Carrey.. Jimmy Fallon was also so hilarious in the MTV Awards parody of 'The Da Vinci Code'.. Oh and, the fast car scenes in 'Taxi' were cool and wicked too!!

But yeah, back to what I was talking abt, I hope the remaining mths to the 'A's is not gonna put too much strain on my emotional state..

I tend to keep trying.. I dun like to be saying things like "this is so hard, I'm not doing it", or "I just hate this, not doing this either!".. Such comments sound superficial, so I control myself from saying such things as much as possible.. Instead I'll prefer to tell others sth like this, "A lvls? Haiya.. Been there done that. Didn't defeat me at all." That'll sound pretty cool.. Haha.. Another crazy thought of mine =S

Well ok! I'm off again! See ya.