/ 11:26 PM

Oh boy.. Juz finished doing the econs DRQ and got so sleepy in the process.. Am here to wake myself up to get some more things done later if possible ^^"

I want to talk abt this drama episode I briefly watched on my com.. I think I seem to like drama characters, and perhaps even real people, who are cheery most of the time but they have their own sadness, which they show but rarely.. It's juz my liking.. Coz I guess, to me it's like trying to cope with one's own problems is more mature.. It's our own problem and not anyone else's anyway.. Trying to AA or attract attention by complaining once too often abt one's problems is not an option for me.. Yet people like that perhaps hope more than anything for someone to understand.. Even if little is spoken.. Well ok.. I seem like I'm hinting abt myself huh? Hahah.. Aiya I'm not looking for sympathy ok.. Maybe I'm simply dramatizing myself.. Haha ok enough..

But back to the drama episode I was watching, the male lead actually is this comical, cheerful guy throughout most of the show, but in the episode I watched.. The fella cried.. I respect men who cry actually.. Tears of a man need not be a sign of weakness.. My feelings were quite swayed by the male lead crying.. And then I had thought.. Oh hey, actually it'll be really good if I were also capable of showing emotion on screen and have others feel the emotions together with me.. So I'm actually aspiring to be an actress or what now.. Ahaha.. Crazy me.. I'm like that lah.. But I've also said in a previous post that I cldn't be 100% sure I aspire to be a movie director.. But I do know I want to get involved in filming good shows, and having good accompanying music soundtracks.. It'll be real good I think, to have people watch oneself on screen and say "wow, that feeling was so real.." Yes.. I think I care about the bringing out of human feeling and emotion.. Together with cool movie sequences and scenes.. Dialogue, action sequences, and filming locations are the elements that make up a movie yeah?

But anyway this male actor that cried was good..^^" And I blabber almost to my fill already.. About to go already.. Haha.. But you see, I think I like swaying others' emotions.. With whatever talent I have(in the process of further discovery=S).. I think Jay Chou also said sth like that before.. He composes music, coz he likes to sway people's emotions ;D Like such a dominant character right? Want to sway people's emotions wor.. Lolz.. I think I sound more dominant when it comes to talking abt my aspirations.. Otherwise, where got fun.. You dream big, not dream abt little things what.. Ahaha.. And I hope, when it comes to really fulfilling my ambitions, I will be driven by big dreams, and not let the fear of trying ever limit my wishes to get something real good out of this life.. Oh yeahhh ok I'm off! X)

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 11:26 PM

Oh boy.. Juz finished doing the econs DRQ and got so sleepy in the process.. Am here to wake myself up to get some more things done later if possible ^^"

I want to talk abt this drama episode I briefly watched on my com.. I think I seem to like drama characters, and perhaps even real people, who are cheery most of the time but they have their own sadness, which they show but rarely.. It's juz my liking.. Coz I guess, to me it's like trying to cope with one's own problems is more mature.. It's our own problem and not anyone else's anyway.. Trying to AA or attract attention by complaining once too often abt one's problems is not an option for me.. Yet people like that perhaps hope more than anything for someone to understand.. Even if little is spoken.. Well ok.. I seem like I'm hinting abt myself huh? Hahah.. Aiya I'm not looking for sympathy ok.. Maybe I'm simply dramatizing myself.. Haha ok enough..

But back to the drama episode I was watching, the male lead actually is this comical, cheerful guy throughout most of the show, but in the episode I watched.. The fella cried.. I respect men who cry actually.. Tears of a man need not be a sign of weakness.. My feelings were quite swayed by the male lead crying.. And then I had thought.. Oh hey, actually it'll be really good if I were also capable of showing emotion on screen and have others feel the emotions together with me.. So I'm actually aspiring to be an actress or what now.. Ahaha.. Crazy me.. I'm like that lah.. But I've also said in a previous post that I cldn't be 100% sure I aspire to be a movie director.. But I do know I want to get involved in filming good shows, and having good accompanying music soundtracks.. It'll be real good I think, to have people watch oneself on screen and say "wow, that feeling was so real.." Yes.. I think I care about the bringing out of human feeling and emotion.. Together with cool movie sequences and scenes.. Dialogue, action sequences, and filming locations are the elements that make up a movie yeah?

But anyway this male actor that cried was good..^^" And I blabber almost to my fill already.. About to go already.. Haha.. But you see, I think I like swaying others' emotions.. With whatever talent I have(in the process of further discovery=S).. I think Jay Chou also said sth like that before.. He composes music, coz he likes to sway people's emotions ;D Like such a dominant character right? Want to sway people's emotions wor.. Lolz.. I think I sound more dominant when it comes to talking abt my aspirations.. Otherwise, where got fun.. You dream big, not dream abt little things what.. Ahaha.. And I hope, when it comes to really fulfilling my ambitions, I will be driven by big dreams, and not let the fear of trying ever limit my wishes to get something real good out of this life.. Oh yeahhh ok I'm off! X)