/ 10:22 PM

I find that my water tap can also be quite badly spoilt.. Sighs.. This period of time, I've been making trips to the hospital to see my mum.. Contrary to what I said in my previous post, I can't stop blogging abt this for now.. I need to.. This is a critical period.. If this bores you, then I got nothing to say.. But those who read this blog for the sake of having news, then u stop reading all e better kk..>=) I think I gotta go abt fixing my this water tap.. This period of time is not easy leh.. It wasn't like I said, there's no extra warmth btwn mother and me in this period.. We have held hands more lor.. No more screaming for e both of us.. She does not have strength.. This kind of interaction v quiet and depressing one leh.. I wish so much.. We cld have had a good relationship.. I see a bit of a loving mother in her now again.. Time to be a 'man'! Do the right thing! Handle this in the most right way now.. Not be shy nor shun her.. Be mature and be unafraid of contact.. I think I shun contact with her sometimes bcoz of my faulty water tap leh.. Man, I find that I'm absolutely honest when I blog.. So it's like altho I dun show much of this before others, I'm still revealing these.. I dun want to share, but neither do I want to hide.. I dun think my mother was quite right in treating me the way she did, but I'm not without wrong either.. Wah seh, so many paradoxes lah.. Life is like this sia, complex.. But I shall make all the quarrels fade, and make this right as best as I can lah.. I need to jia you jia you! My studies still bug me.. This year, how can they not bug me sia.. I shall try to hold on to my dream.. Dear God, help me jia you ok! Yeah! =D

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 10:22 PM

I find that my water tap can also be quite badly spoilt.. Sighs.. This period of time, I've been making trips to the hospital to see my mum.. Contrary to what I said in my previous post, I can't stop blogging abt this for now.. I need to.. This is a critical period.. If this bores you, then I got nothing to say.. But those who read this blog for the sake of having news, then u stop reading all e better kk..>=) I think I gotta go abt fixing my this water tap.. This period of time is not easy leh.. It wasn't like I said, there's no extra warmth btwn mother and me in this period.. We have held hands more lor.. No more screaming for e both of us.. She does not have strength.. This kind of interaction v quiet and depressing one leh.. I wish so much.. We cld have had a good relationship.. I see a bit of a loving mother in her now again.. Time to be a 'man'! Do the right thing! Handle this in the most right way now.. Not be shy nor shun her.. Be mature and be unafraid of contact.. I think I shun contact with her sometimes bcoz of my faulty water tap leh.. Man, I find that I'm absolutely honest when I blog.. So it's like altho I dun show much of this before others, I'm still revealing these.. I dun want to share, but neither do I want to hide.. I dun think my mother was quite right in treating me the way she did, but I'm not without wrong either.. Wah seh, so many paradoxes lah.. Life is like this sia, complex.. But I shall make all the quarrels fade, and make this right as best as I can lah.. I need to jia you jia you! My studies still bug me.. This year, how can they not bug me sia.. I shall try to hold on to my dream.. Dear God, help me jia you ok! Yeah! =D