/ 7:42 PM

The chinese students watched the movie "Di Jiu Tian Chang", translated as "Forever and Ever", during class.. And I actually joined them.. Lolz.. I have liked this show all along wat.. So I didn't mind rewatching it.. It was pretty embarrasing bcoz Mrs Heng was somehow commending me, "See? She is such a good example.. Actually want to watch the movie for a second time.." Whoahoho..*_*

The movie is abt a young man who contracted AIDS through a transfusion of blood contaminated with the HIV virus.. It's a true story.. My heart goes all out to the guy.. He has already passed away..='( But he lived his life to the fullest before he died.. I respect such ppl..

The movie has a message, which is that we ought to live our lives to the fullest, and even if our lives were to be short, still we wld not have led wasted lives.. And I cldn't help but wonder what if one's life will possibly be shortened, but one still doesn't live in a very positive manner..? The male lead in the movie had said to his mother, "If I become ugly, or start scolding everyone all the time due to my sickness.. Will you give up on me?" The mother's reply was that she wld never give up on her son, no matter what.. This had quite an impact on me coz I thought abt those lines in the light of something else.. I do feel guilt.. For not being a good daughter.. And yet, I still want to leave this issue alone.. Coz our level of communication is not going to improve.. Maybe the movie will remind me time and time again to tolerate.. But I dun see how I will learn to feel love for her and show it naturally.. I understand that she needs that.. I do too.. But somehow I have given up on this.. I wish she cld see that we can actually be a happy family.. But I am glad I have a patient father, and a brother who cares for me quite a bit. I dunno how much sense you can make out of the above sentences, coz I've only told one v good friend abt the entire situation.. But I dun mind spilling everything out, coz it's not sth to be ashamed of anyway.. And somehow, I wish I cld be told the exact right thing to do, but I guess only I myself can decide such things.

I blog abt things that make me down, rather than abt some wild outings (hmm, can't be considered as wild lar=S) and so on.. That's coz I have a greater need to spill out my feelings abt upsetting matters rather than happy ones.. I think everyone wld have issues that have bothered us for some time.. The sadness sticks, and although such issues tend to be thrown to the back of our minds, somehow they will be there.. Life was never meant to be a bed of roses(yah ok! cliche I know).. So my blog is an avenue for me to vomit out any unhappiness! Hahaha.. Kinda disgusting the way I put it huh? ;P

Ok, here's something I've done that's happier.. I saw the 'Incomparable To Jay' DVD selling at $20, inclusive of 2 freebies - a keychain plus a wristband, both carrying the initial J!! I will buy that tmr! I have wanted to watch Jay's concerts.. Haven't went to see him live in concert yet.. Hoping to.. I 'converted' to being his fan not that long ago what.. The DVD seems quite worth the price.. When I saw the keychain plus wristband, my eyelids fluttered a little higher.. And when I saw the price, my eyes shot wide open! Lolx.. Naw, that's with a bit of exaggeration lar.. Haha.. But I find it quite a joy to come across good deals..-bleahz- I'm becoming quite broke.. It's like an enactment of 'Brokedebt Mountain'.. Haha! Once broke, the debts pile up as high as a mountain lo..XD

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 7:42 PM

The chinese students watched the movie "Di Jiu Tian Chang", translated as "Forever and Ever", during class.. And I actually joined them.. Lolz.. I have liked this show all along wat.. So I didn't mind rewatching it.. It was pretty embarrasing bcoz Mrs Heng was somehow commending me, "See? She is such a good example.. Actually want to watch the movie for a second time.." Whoahoho..*_*

The movie is abt a young man who contracted AIDS through a transfusion of blood contaminated with the HIV virus.. It's a true story.. My heart goes all out to the guy.. He has already passed away..='( But he lived his life to the fullest before he died.. I respect such ppl..

The movie has a message, which is that we ought to live our lives to the fullest, and even if our lives were to be short, still we wld not have led wasted lives.. And I cldn't help but wonder what if one's life will possibly be shortened, but one still doesn't live in a very positive manner..? The male lead in the movie had said to his mother, "If I become ugly, or start scolding everyone all the time due to my sickness.. Will you give up on me?" The mother's reply was that she wld never give up on her son, no matter what.. This had quite an impact on me coz I thought abt those lines in the light of something else.. I do feel guilt.. For not being a good daughter.. And yet, I still want to leave this issue alone.. Coz our level of communication is not going to improve.. Maybe the movie will remind me time and time again to tolerate.. But I dun see how I will learn to feel love for her and show it naturally.. I understand that she needs that.. I do too.. But somehow I have given up on this.. I wish she cld see that we can actually be a happy family.. But I am glad I have a patient father, and a brother who cares for me quite a bit. I dunno how much sense you can make out of the above sentences, coz I've only told one v good friend abt the entire situation.. But I dun mind spilling everything out, coz it's not sth to be ashamed of anyway.. And somehow, I wish I cld be told the exact right thing to do, but I guess only I myself can decide such things.

I blog abt things that make me down, rather than abt some wild outings (hmm, can't be considered as wild lar=S) and so on.. That's coz I have a greater need to spill out my feelings abt upsetting matters rather than happy ones.. I think everyone wld have issues that have bothered us for some time.. The sadness sticks, and although such issues tend to be thrown to the back of our minds, somehow they will be there.. Life was never meant to be a bed of roses(yah ok! cliche I know).. So my blog is an avenue for me to vomit out any unhappiness! Hahaha.. Kinda disgusting the way I put it huh? ;P

Ok, here's something I've done that's happier.. I saw the 'Incomparable To Jay' DVD selling at $20, inclusive of 2 freebies - a keychain plus a wristband, both carrying the initial J!! I will buy that tmr! I have wanted to watch Jay's concerts.. Haven't went to see him live in concert yet.. Hoping to.. I 'converted' to being his fan not that long ago what.. The DVD seems quite worth the price.. When I saw the keychain plus wristband, my eyelids fluttered a little higher.. And when I saw the price, my eyes shot wide open! Lolx.. Naw, that's with a bit of exaggeration lar.. Haha.. But I find it quite a joy to come across good deals..-bleahz- I'm becoming quite broke.. It's like an enactment of 'Brokedebt Mountain'.. Haha! Once broke, the debts pile up as high as a mountain lo..XD