/ 3:28 PM

I've got about 1/2 an hour before I muz go and prepare to go to work again.. My in charge told me he wants me to work even more hours in the remaining two weeks of the year! Yikes.. School gonna open, and nw then they want me to work more, awww.. Am I updating nw for the sake of updating? That's right! Haha.. Hmm what do I have to say.. Lemme think abt this hols in general and juz blabble again

Two days ago, a dear friend from my sec school actually called me.. I think that is a hard thing to do man.. Never heard from each other for almost 2 years and to call up the person and have a comfortable chat, that's hard! So I really treasure that thought and wanna be meeting up with her soon.. The fact that she bothered and didn't forget the friendship after so long is valuable huh? Such things tell u straight that's a friend not to let go of.. Dun u think so? ^_^ Her A Levels are over already, and she cld have been gone n have all e fun in e world but she called me up.. Tis season is getting heartwarming.. Heheh

Talking abt my sec school, I've never told anyone much abt the times there.. I can say my upper sec school yrs were unhappy.. Sometimes I want to talk abt it coz I think it's such a pity that those years were wasted in my point of view.. And I want to get some lessons out of that so as to not repeat past mistakes.. But at e same time, I dun want to talk abt it coz it wld hurt.. To sum up the reasons for the unhappiness, I was juz doing badly academic wise.. Only this one thing, but I cldn't open my eyes to see that there was more than studies.. So what I had done was to revolve my life in those 2 years around studies, and the most ridiculous thing is, I dun believe I was ever really studying hard.. Yes, I saw lots of teachers to get help in school, during free periods and breaks I wld get down to do work.. Never built close friendships with that many ppl.. When I gt home after school, I was too sick and unwilling to touch schoolwork.. And there u go. How much did I study when I was at home? All the work I did in school - was I doing it mechanically? And passing each school day constantly juz waiting for it to end? And the O Levels came and went.. My upper sec school yrs did not play a meaningful part in my life in general.. Wldn't make a difference if it were erased from the timeline of my life, I feel.. And I think I'm partly at fault.. I felt so lousy abt myself.. And in some ways, I allowed myself to feel that way.. I din have a hard resolve, I din try hard enough to stop the sh*t right then and come up stronger, even if it had to be done bit.by.bit. And I didn't get much help, yet what about the help that had to come from myself first?

Ah.. I have to prepare to go for work already.. Lol anti climax.. But all I know is the above will have to go into the trashcan, and i juz needed to type this out to reflect on it. I didn't see education for what it was.. Learn for the sake of learning.. I can probably give excuses like, "Aiya juz not interested", "Demoralized what".. But that will be weak man.. And I wish I had had more fun, and then really studied like I mean it, with a drive. But we dun wish for the past to change.. So all I wish for from now is to see things for what they really are.. Make the best out of things.. No more wasted years for me.. Only we can put a value on ourselves. And this is MY life afterall. YEAH! Haha k.. really gotta rush. See ya!!

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 3:28 PM

I've got about 1/2 an hour before I muz go and prepare to go to work again.. My in charge told me he wants me to work even more hours in the remaining two weeks of the year! Yikes.. School gonna open, and nw then they want me to work more, awww.. Am I updating nw for the sake of updating? That's right! Haha.. Hmm what do I have to say.. Lemme think abt this hols in general and juz blabble again

Two days ago, a dear friend from my sec school actually called me.. I think that is a hard thing to do man.. Never heard from each other for almost 2 years and to call up the person and have a comfortable chat, that's hard! So I really treasure that thought and wanna be meeting up with her soon.. The fact that she bothered and didn't forget the friendship after so long is valuable huh? Such things tell u straight that's a friend not to let go of.. Dun u think so? ^_^ Her A Levels are over already, and she cld have been gone n have all e fun in e world but she called me up.. Tis season is getting heartwarming.. Heheh

Talking abt my sec school, I've never told anyone much abt the times there.. I can say my upper sec school yrs were unhappy.. Sometimes I want to talk abt it coz I think it's such a pity that those years were wasted in my point of view.. And I want to get some lessons out of that so as to not repeat past mistakes.. But at e same time, I dun want to talk abt it coz it wld hurt.. To sum up the reasons for the unhappiness, I was juz doing badly academic wise.. Only this one thing, but I cldn't open my eyes to see that there was more than studies.. So what I had done was to revolve my life in those 2 years around studies, and the most ridiculous thing is, I dun believe I was ever really studying hard.. Yes, I saw lots of teachers to get help in school, during free periods and breaks I wld get down to do work.. Never built close friendships with that many ppl.. When I gt home after school, I was too sick and unwilling to touch schoolwork.. And there u go. How much did I study when I was at home? All the work I did in school - was I doing it mechanically? And passing each school day constantly juz waiting for it to end? And the O Levels came and went.. My upper sec school yrs did not play a meaningful part in my life in general.. Wldn't make a difference if it were erased from the timeline of my life, I feel.. And I think I'm partly at fault.. I felt so lousy abt myself.. And in some ways, I allowed myself to feel that way.. I din have a hard resolve, I din try hard enough to stop the sh*t right then and come up stronger, even if it had to be done bit.by.bit. And I didn't get much help, yet what about the help that had to come from myself first?

Ah.. I have to prepare to go for work already.. Lol anti climax.. But all I know is the above will have to go into the trashcan, and i juz needed to type this out to reflect on it. I didn't see education for what it was.. Learn for the sake of learning.. I can probably give excuses like, "Aiya juz not interested", "Demoralized what".. But that will be weak man.. And I wish I had had more fun, and then really studied like I mean it, with a drive. But we dun wish for the past to change.. So all I wish for from now is to see things for what they really are.. Make the best out of things.. No more wasted years for me.. Only we can put a value on ourselves. And this is MY life afterall. YEAH! Haha k.. really gotta rush. See ya!!