/ 8:33 PM

At first, I had a list of quite interesting issues to blog abt, but my mood is swaying me again and I'm gonna talk abt sth else.. Again, it's the crap I'm facing at home lah.. These things are turning me into quite an unhappy person, and I'm guessing my emotional state is not v healthy these few mths.. Know what, I've been getting more vulgar.. When frustrations keep coming on, I scold the f word more and more sia.. I dun say it in front of others, but I use it at leisure when I'm by myself nw. Haiii.. On the other hand, to those who use the f word so often in public, as though it was some pretty decoration for the words they speak: Lemme tell u that the f word doesn't make u more admirable.. In fact these ppl sometimes seem like they hv very limited vocab to me, that's why they keep using the word -.-" I mean, I'm nt the kind of person who squirms at each mention of the word, and then act high class and look at the person who scolded the word in distaste or sth lah. But hey, shld limit the use of vulgarities right.. Very impressive meh..=S However, I do agree that some angsty novels and movies wun be same w/o some use of vulgarities.. Heheh

Track back a bit now. I was saying, I'm scolding more vulgarities but nt in front of others right.. Sigh it's not sth I welcome.. I'm apprehensive about it..

Listening to diff kinds of music influence u differently right? I can say I find it really true now that I myself underwent experimentation at Adidas.. Hahah.. Coz the music one guy likes to play there is pretty vulgar! And the mood of the music is pretty much the dark frustrating kind, which carries a message like isn't-everything-pissing-u-off-why-dun-u-get-out-there-and-take-it-out-on-somebody? Well hmm.. Dunno if that sounds right.. But I try to say things in a more unique way so it wld be more interesting only wat.. Lol.. But yar, that's quite the way it is. Oh and, somemore the songs have sexual content also.. So yeah, being exposed to more music like these working at Adidas.. And it's nt a big matter, but refraining from listening to such music wld be preferable..

However that does nt contribute so much to my scolding of vulgarities.. Haiz life is getting to me again.. Same stuff that happens.. Still coming on and more.. Stuff within the family.. Family is supposedly the one body to turn to for support.. And love.. But lotsa times, love is the most basic thing you can ask for yet it can also be the most unobtainable. And there are surely ppl who decide at some point in their lives they dun want riches nor power nor anything else, but love. But unfortunately as I said, that may be the hardest to achieve.. It will be sadder to think that love is also the purest thing to ask for..

Not in the mood to detail the poor relationship I have with my mum now.. If I hv to talk it out, I will do so properly and not only tell my side of the story.. I wldn't want ppl to agree 'oh yes you are right' and then I dun do what is REALLY right, only to regret later on.. But what exactly is right? The problem cld just be such that whatever is right to you, is not right to someone else. Happens often.. I'm getting blur nw.. Hehz.. Brain not fully awake lah, can't blame me.. Okie I'll blog another time! Going off to read novels.. I do that when my brain isn't actively functioning.. Coz I let other ppl tell me the story and I no need to think on my own isn't it? Haha cya

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 8:33 PM

At first, I had a list of quite interesting issues to blog abt, but my mood is swaying me again and I'm gonna talk abt sth else.. Again, it's the crap I'm facing at home lah.. These things are turning me into quite an unhappy person, and I'm guessing my emotional state is not v healthy these few mths.. Know what, I've been getting more vulgar.. When frustrations keep coming on, I scold the f word more and more sia.. I dun say it in front of others, but I use it at leisure when I'm by myself nw. Haiii.. On the other hand, to those who use the f word so often in public, as though it was some pretty decoration for the words they speak: Lemme tell u that the f word doesn't make u more admirable.. In fact these ppl sometimes seem like they hv very limited vocab to me, that's why they keep using the word -.-" I mean, I'm nt the kind of person who squirms at each mention of the word, and then act high class and look at the person who scolded the word in distaste or sth lah. But hey, shld limit the use of vulgarities right.. Very impressive meh..=S However, I do agree that some angsty novels and movies wun be same w/o some use of vulgarities.. Heheh

Track back a bit now. I was saying, I'm scolding more vulgarities but nt in front of others right.. Sigh it's not sth I welcome.. I'm apprehensive about it..

Listening to diff kinds of music influence u differently right? I can say I find it really true now that I myself underwent experimentation at Adidas.. Hahah.. Coz the music one guy likes to play there is pretty vulgar! And the mood of the music is pretty much the dark frustrating kind, which carries a message like isn't-everything-pissing-u-off-why-dun-u-get-out-there-and-take-it-out-on-somebody? Well hmm.. Dunno if that sounds right.. But I try to say things in a more unique way so it wld be more interesting only wat.. Lol.. But yar, that's quite the way it is. Oh and, somemore the songs have sexual content also.. So yeah, being exposed to more music like these working at Adidas.. And it's nt a big matter, but refraining from listening to such music wld be preferable..

However that does nt contribute so much to my scolding of vulgarities.. Haiz life is getting to me again.. Same stuff that happens.. Still coming on and more.. Stuff within the family.. Family is supposedly the one body to turn to for support.. And love.. But lotsa times, love is the most basic thing you can ask for yet it can also be the most unobtainable. And there are surely ppl who decide at some point in their lives they dun want riches nor power nor anything else, but love. But unfortunately as I said, that may be the hardest to achieve.. It will be sadder to think that love is also the purest thing to ask for..

Not in the mood to detail the poor relationship I have with my mum now.. If I hv to talk it out, I will do so properly and not only tell my side of the story.. I wldn't want ppl to agree 'oh yes you are right' and then I dun do what is REALLY right, only to regret later on.. But what exactly is right? The problem cld just be such that whatever is right to you, is not right to someone else. Happens often.. I'm getting blur nw.. Hehz.. Brain not fully awake lah, can't blame me.. Okie I'll blog another time! Going off to read novels.. I do that when my brain isn't actively functioning.. Coz I let other ppl tell me the story and I no need to think on my own isn't it? Haha cya