/ 11:31 PM

Right now, I admit to be feeling more on the down side.. Yeah, the rest of the day till now I had actually still felt pretty good.. So this probably shows that I can change moods pretty quick, but I dun mean I have mood swings, throw temper etc...

So let me be elusive for now, just like I know how others sometimes blog in a way not meant for other ppl but only for themselves to understand =P

It's an issue that dwells in my mind, but I dun really address it that often.. To do with my family larh.. But no need for any particular details, I juz wanna spill out some of this.. So, since this has got to do with someone closely related to me, it is quite important but somehow, I tend to push it to the back of my mind de..=/ This member of my family and myself grew quite distant from one another.. Just like two boats in the sea, then a gust of wind came, changes the whole scenery.. Which is why the boats seperate.. Heh.. Then now, the situation is not so good, this family member becomes unwell, and what can I do to contribute I dun quite know.. I guess I dun feel as affected as I wld naturally feel if we were closer.. But I still do feel it.. Which is not such a bad sign la. ^^; Basically the main worry is that, what extra contributions to make to the family in a v critical time.. Other day-to-day happenings shld not keep making me not get down to it, I think.. Yet it's not so easy when it feels less natural.. I dun right away do the right thing..

Yeap, sth like this~ Now it all becomes pretty clear to me mithinkz.. I need to gain understanding.. Oooom~ *meditates* But I still dun hope we have any more yoga lessons! Not if they take the place of captain ball games.. Unless they replace physical training lessons, then that's no problem la.. Haha. But at this time of the year, no more FPT la.. Hmm.. Quite good to have a change in blogging the above.. Such things make a person seem more 'real' right? =P So it works? Haha.. Nah.. Afterall, a blog is for us to write abt more sh*tty days and the non-sh*tty days.. I hope I'm having a better flow in blogging as I post more?

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 11:31 PM

Right now, I admit to be feeling more on the down side.. Yeah, the rest of the day till now I had actually still felt pretty good.. So this probably shows that I can change moods pretty quick, but I dun mean I have mood swings, throw temper etc...

So let me be elusive for now, just like I know how others sometimes blog in a way not meant for other ppl but only for themselves to understand =P

It's an issue that dwells in my mind, but I dun really address it that often.. To do with my family larh.. But no need for any particular details, I juz wanna spill out some of this.. So, since this has got to do with someone closely related to me, it is quite important but somehow, I tend to push it to the back of my mind de..=/ This member of my family and myself grew quite distant from one another.. Just like two boats in the sea, then a gust of wind came, changes the whole scenery.. Which is why the boats seperate.. Heh.. Then now, the situation is not so good, this family member becomes unwell, and what can I do to contribute I dun quite know.. I guess I dun feel as affected as I wld naturally feel if we were closer.. But I still do feel it.. Which is not such a bad sign la. ^^; Basically the main worry is that, what extra contributions to make to the family in a v critical time.. Other day-to-day happenings shld not keep making me not get down to it, I think.. Yet it's not so easy when it feels less natural.. I dun right away do the right thing..

Yeap, sth like this~ Now it all becomes pretty clear to me mithinkz.. I need to gain understanding.. Oooom~ *meditates* But I still dun hope we have any more yoga lessons! Not if they take the place of captain ball games.. Unless they replace physical training lessons, then that's no problem la.. Haha. But at this time of the year, no more FPT la.. Hmm.. Quite good to have a change in blogging the above.. Such things make a person seem more 'real' right? =P So it works? Haha.. Nah.. Afterall, a blog is for us to write abt more sh*tty days and the non-sh*tty days.. I hope I'm having a better flow in blogging as I post more?